You are limited and evolving birthing a new species, a new awareness, a god remembering itself. And, you also have the ability to just simply remember it all instantaneous moment. However, that does take a certain dynamic that is not law in the idea of humanity, but it is a truth law and those truth laws, I see seem to supersede the ego every time. What do I mean by that? Let me explain.
Since you guys are privy (in the know) to death in the physical reality due to age, or some kind of physical trauma, that would give you the experience of the body giving up. But of course, the body isn't giving up. It's just the entire amount of something that outweighs another something that would result as a death. Okay? So stick with me on this so you can start to understand how you can create, yet you are creating, right? And we'll get into the more relationship of vibration so you can understand aaa, A passion about vibration. Okay, so I'm going to give you some ideas.
Marilyn’s notes: Now the origin, the birthing of the word DEATH is actually meaning TO GIVE. Through religion etc.it has taken on different meanings to support the idea of polarity. However, the definition of the word death is GIVE. We give into continually new perspectives to explore through our imagination which shows up as our reality. This changes the program which is our language. When we understand that death means to give, it dissolves the panic, the fear of there being an ending, so that translates into not being eternal vibrational beings. Hallelujah! Fear has to justify itself, excuse itself with taking on reasons of the journey to death as death being pushed but it is not what occurs.
What you put out is what you get back. You understand that and it's a vibrational true. So you guys have spent an enormous amount of time dissecting your own kingdom, ripping it apart, flailing yourself like a stuck pig ready to be feasted on at a Hawaiian luau and figuring out what is making you tick. Booyahh.
Marilyn’s notes: Vibration is the level of degree of thoughts that reflect someone’s perception. Such as Plants have a higher vibration than a mineral such as a rock. It is not greater; it is just perceiving itself in a different reflection of the WHOLE. Perception is how we grasp ideas in the mind. We grasp through the feelings, the senses, not physical senses image with image, but non-physical first (all imagination). True comes from the word faithful, and faithful is rooted in the word perception. This transmission makes complete beautiful explanation of how we get what we put out! Origin of the word Universe, Universe is the existence of ALL. In order for it to exist, it must be perceivable. Boom! We each individually, as God consciousness, God awareness, that can perceive all, because all already is!! Hallelujah!!!! We choose what to perceive, which then is true and truth is our individual vibration.
Yeah, good…now! To come up against the vibrational fear of death is an institution in the minds of a psyche, human psyche, which you knew as a death occurred when you first coveted (means to desire it) it. It may have been a one year old or 10-year-old, but somewhere you guys value death as a reality. And that head starts the death hormone and the entire body starts to put itself on a timer and tick tick tick away. But along the idea of the dynamic, according to the relationship with the self, the idea of the death is moved in simple different ideas of probabilities, right? That's all there is many exit points some of the channels have talked about, it doesn't matter, but what is certain is death from one perspective! aaAAh, now there lies the conundrum (meaning the challenge).
You are two perspectives.
You are the battle of the new, realized, accepted, evolved, focused on, emaciated. (laughter) And the other forting (meaning as for protection or defense) self of identity who’s flailing looking for something to hold on to, to grasp to, to give you an image, to make you mad, too make you assign, to make you identified into recognition takes place and that idea is the certainty of death. Now that death is a belief system, a very strong one. And through that you run out of time maybe you don't understand how you can relate to vibrational reality and create a different reality for yourself that has no involvement of death. Why would you want to do that? What's wrong with death? Nothing. It's the same as a nice ice cream, roller coaster ride, an evening fishing with a family member. It's gorgeous. Death is outstanding experience.
However. what does that mean? Well, there's no new perspective. There's no evolution of something. What are we talking about? We're talking about the God remembered this little infant. Bottom of the cavern, I think the speaker spoke today in this big gorge with Jagat wet walls standing, towering above the infant in rags with no identity, no food, no source, no is this just existence a point of complete vanilla vulnerability and nakedness? Standing to bring out this newness, that newness, that body, that thing you see down there that child is in existence, it is an invincible, it is forever. Hmmm. Yes, of course.
That's where you place your focus. This newness that doesn't grasp the ideas of next week's paycheck, or what am I going to do with about a career, or what are they thinking about me, or how am I going to manage this life? Time all of that shit done. Puff the Magic Dragon is your too loving now, right? So, so, you have this conundrum about this new self being burst to realize, a manifestation. A manifestation within your grasp now that manifestation in and of itself is to manifest.
So that's what you're manifesting, the ability to manifest, create, vibrationally attract with a mind of attraction that is aware of its true, that is aware of its value, that is aware of its preference and doesn't have a corms about what the reality is because it has no site. Zero site of polarity. True dat, True that.
So, here beginneth the lesson aaah. Within each kingdom is a dynamic vibration. You're not discounting these next words, you must accept this within yourself as a potential. Without justification of it, that it is truly there. Without seeking of it to know it's there.
The vulnerability about this next statement must be accept with the purest of heart with zero of intention, without the absolute allowance of realization to occur in natural realization. That you are a creator. That you can manifest and we're going to show you how.
Manifestation takes place at a dynamic vibration of a knowing that occurs in the sequential 10 years’ time of the now, at the exact edge of unknown and known. And as soon as the known is occurred, it is already. Which means you have non-intentionally created. Your awareness, however, is in time so, you are quote “the results of your natural attraction” right?
That natural attraction is law. Your perception of your natural attraction is polarity. When there is no perception of your natural attraction, natural attraction is not seen as that, it is known in the moment. See the difference? So your experience you're going through life. I think it was the Darrell Anka conduit, that channeled an Essanni that said, “you are in the passenger seat along for a ride” yes. And you are also driving. And to realize yourself as a driver you must realize yourself as a passenger. That is the truth of you. You have to give up on driving, managing, trying, efforting, controlling. Everything that the ego prides itself of, prouds itself around, seeks itself in the manifestations of others worthiness. Hmmm. Do you notice that? I think you did.
Marilyn’s notes: Ego. This word has the origin in the word, I. I is the first personality, the name in place of. It is taking the place of. This makes sense that each Ego is looking to take the place of, to play out an idea through a self-image, a label, a name. The self-image is not all that is, it is not the totality of who we each are for it is just a path to explore, to mimic and idea. Going to check more YouTube on Odyssey regarding Ego.
Okay. So when you let go what you have you realize the only way you can be in the passenger seat. Now reference now, right now nothing before now, right now pay attention right now! Now you realize this because you are in time. You are the result of the now, your experience is coming in, and is also known as it's depleted through filters of time and awareness, value, human. No reason to go into all the dynamics, you get it.
So to catch up with the self must be an acceptance of the Creator…imperatives without doubt without valuing any proof, without justifying your means of looking around. This pen doesn't exist, it didn't come from a store. Tammy didn't send it to Roxy. Right? Roxy manifested in the moment, through the vibrational co-creation between her and Tammy. Period.
The physical pain is created right now. Now, now, now, now, now, now! It's not sitting there in time. Everything is now. So since that's occurring, well then you can be aware of it. Now the awareness is where the ego must cease to bring itself into and that is not brought by you. Because you are the humble to the self of realization without trying to be smart, trying to be I'm going to figure this out, trying to be anything that the human dynamic wants it to be; so may be accepted, known, pleased, successful, fail anything human anything, anything, anything.
This manifestation occurring in the moment or occurring Ah, in the moment, is the dynamic isness of now, and you are present there you have to be. It became, it becomes rather than, let's say a very, very noteworthy observation point of existence. Time is slow though, so things don't seem to change much.
How about you guys go a walk around your neighborhood, one block every day for a week, you'll see change, you will. That change is not because of cause and effect. It changed because of reality relationship. Okay, you relating to your reality is constant change. See, you've always looked at life as a result. It's time what life's going to bring me. Life isn't bringing you anything life has been created by you for you. But you value yourself as separate in time catching up to the self that is whole trying to get there, all this stuff, right?
So you have this new self that is birthing its creation experience once again, now follow me. You're a creator, at some certain point of now all knowing, but knowing nothing but the now forever. Right? What is that called everyone? Evolution, right. But it's not really evolution, unless you measure what it truly is, is revelation. Right? You're always constantly revealing you to yourself. So worse to singularity and singularity expressing source symbiotic all that is co creation yadi yadi you got it. Okay.
So this self that is now birthing a homo Dominicus realizing it is a God in the idea of an incarnation and it doesn't matter if it's a human. This is just happens to be the one is,homo-dominicus (14minutes:27 seconds time of audio, which as I look at Germany time it is 14:27..wtf) okay ideas, but you can do in another idea but that dynamics, different, different, different, so don't make it special because it's human. Okay.
During this incarnation, my heart jokes as this value of nakedness now, of not knowing, of humility, of realization that you are a creator. And everything that is about you is going to be bequeathed (meaning given) upon you with zero effort, zero begging, zero works, zero effort, zero outcomes, zero measure nothing. It's natural.
The key here is to receive something. At one time you were evolutionary to God which is an idea of revolutionary to the self. Always realizing your creative self. What we say to the gods because the God of creation, which is you within, right? But you're waking up to yourself constantly revealing yourself. Now that's, this you, but this you incarnated is an idea of a fractal they didn't know it was this you. Hmm. See this whole you God right creator creation is an all knowing of all that is right, through all of it selves, all co creation or singularities everybody there all are one, one are all.
And now that you're this idea of singularity, you have a whole bunch of concepts about this self, this self, this self, and this self in different incarnations and you keep focusing around. But what you need to do, is realize that you're this point of awareness now, and that gives you a connectivity that is unmatched and unparallel and all human dynamics. From there, you can do whatever the hell you want, but you got to know it first, to understand the strength of what you yield and wield of the power of a creator. ut it happens in infancy birthing this devindictus can't be a sapiens one ounce of ego inside of _____isn't already devinicus has not realized. ____has is in and of itself, a god revealing itself from a whole new perspective remembering your God, not the death God. The death God poof Oh, it's me. Oh, oh what a ride? Hey, that was you that was you? That was so cool dude, I can't believe, and I fucking hated you look at you now, I love you all that's death God, death creator. The human dynamic ending the game to a possibility of a hostile experience. Whether it is a natural death, but it's vibrating out of life into life, so it would be considered quite hostile.
Why? Why do I say that? Well because death doesn't occur in the same way except for humans is so fucking unique. There's different experiences of death. You’re going through the death process is in many incarnations, but it is an experience of life. It is not the amount of unknown that you guys suffer and the relative reality that realization is not suffering but that is the dynamic of appearance to the collective.
A death to know the mystery of life to really know there's an angry God, or judgmental God, or a Christ conscience to really know if all of this is bullshit real what is the truth? That's a scary fucking moment for anybody and everybody, no matter how much they give in a once they give in, once they give in, once the give up, then there is no fear, it's magical. Because they're realized, they're realized, magnificent to experience a death in this dynamic. However, each and every one of you have experienced a lot and there is a known certainty, once a known certainty is known, it is no longer vibrationally attracted.
What is attracted? A different reality. What had happened to all of you? You woke up. Woke up to the realization that I am a singular point of existence. I truly know that within my kingdom within myself of relationship. My egoic mind, my structure mind, my brrrr mind, doesn't matter, has issues with that. A person that once said, Roxy, I take great umbrage (meaning resentment) with that big word (giggles) umbrage. Just look it up--word of the Day. Anyway, so that ego has a problem with truth that is beyond the scope of value. proven, right? That's why it's easy to die. That's why it's easy to do that. That's why it's easy for everyone to value the idea of polarity because it is so simple to know, this journey you've woken to is excruciating because you're birthing a new fucking species without incarnating it, get it?
You're literally incarnating it as vibration, sure, but you aren't. You're doing the birthing of it through what? Worthiness. Absolutely falling in love with you. Truly accepting yourself as your own leader, your own truth, and valuing that, and expressing it, and never wavering from it, and never justifying yourself, and never giving an ounce of yourself. When you know that everyone does Oh, you're a fucking idiot and you're like, yes. But that's who I am, loving you. Right? Now that's excruciating. But that is the forged in the fire of birthing a divinicus. Because a divinicus (meaning your divine being, your divine existence) is a God that is going to be an incarnating creating relationship to reality, as other gods are, but the difference is, is your awareness. That's simple.
Marilyn’s notes: Worthiness. Worthy or worthiness originates from the word BECOMING. Boom!!! We are always becoming! We are birthing through becoming!
We all talked about this, but now you're knowing it. So vibration is where you're going to start in manifestation. Manifestation is many different things. Manifestation of course, is physicality, objects, things come to you. Things come to you and whatever timing the natural timing assess. But you are no longer under the guise of that. But you can't bring the ego self to the controlling factor of when and how and why and why nots and your own ego of pressure, of expectation. Because that only brings it to the vibrational match of that attractive world, do you guys know this.
So what work do you do? What can you literally do to understand how to start manifesting?
Realization. Boring, fucking boring realization. It is because you don't do any work. But why you might you do is realize your vibration. Realize your truth about yourself. You really got to stop in one regard, not stop as in the gate but when your mind knows, and it’s value of ego, and it's offering you some lucrative ideas of image to value…stop. Because that's a vibration well aware in that choice, is time. So when you are vibrating in an Isness. This is incoming vibration is the moment, the event horizon where the unknown is cutting into the known to the dynamic awareness of you. You are aware of the unknown to the known, right? But of course, your mind says, oh it's the same apartment is the same floors my same car everything's in the same place. No, it's not. Everything is dead, alive, dead, alive, created, collapse, created, collapse, not truly dead just deadly awareness of your existence, to not focusing on anymore. It's gone.
Changes constant reality is constantly changing. It's thousand pens, another thousand. Oh, another thousand. Wow, thousand more pens. Wow, look at that, see how many you see it? See, that's what's happening literally. And you can't catch up to that when you try. And everything has been to get you to this point through allowance awareness and realization. Revelation is to reveal to you that of what you are and to reveal to yourself, what you are, is a preference. And once you are preference in that value, I deserve this, then you can know you are naked to the world and allow it to happen. And of course, you're going to start to catch up with the now and realize. Right?
So what do you want to do to manifest? Start to be using this wielding this power. Well we said onetime you can do this and manifest a little thing a little thing but that's candy and it grows quite lonesome and lackluster because once you manifest the idea of a small thing the natural appetite is to get a bigger and bigger and bigger more valuable thing. When you guys know there's nothing that is valued over anything else in all of reality, save the value you play something for your own coverage of polarity and if you see value over another piece of information creation, then you know you are scoping reality, through polarity, as all is perfect, okay.
So, this manifestor that I am creates an idea reality that doesn't show the self it can create because I know I'm a creator. Right? It's absolutely off the charts, what it is that we are, in your terms. It’s magnificent, if you will. But I don't go around surprised that I'm a creator because I never forgotten I was a creator from this venue right here, this here now hello hi. I know. Now you know, but you have a portion of yourself that doesn't choose to know. Because it's afraid to know, literally, it needs things to know to allow itself to know. Right?
Just like you woke up, you guys have all known new knowns that you could never accept before until you evolved into yourself of worthiness. Okay, so the proof is in the pudding on the relationship of where you are right now that you can manifest, but you're not manifesting the things of your preference known. You are manifesting the whole of you, known, otherwise you're not having this reality, every this reality is my truth. That's what you got to know. That's what we told you watch that natural preference start to observe. So you can see.
So, when we get to a certain point of realization with our caught-up self-more current, how do we manifest as a divinicus? A divinicus must know itself has God, not in the fullness, but without doubt, not improve ability, not in justification, not in relatively of others acceptance or yes you are, but it’s internal knowing. Right?
That Kingdom return bubbles and swells and perks and becomes and realizes and it all it is, is just appealing away to reveal what's underneath, what's inside and you bring it out natural. Now when you catch up more to the current of the now because you're not in time looking around on how to manage your life, you're in the now and the current and let life come at you, you're going to realize relationships with things. Like I knew I was getting that well, yeah, because you already created it for you. And you knew you were getting that cause your relationship with that as an awareness.
So that brings you closer to the manifestation of natural that you are bending the light of things coming through into a reality of preference, right? You, what you prefer as a creator. So the more you let go of what you don't prefer by accepting what is, what you're trying to get accepting what is, what you don't want, accepting what is, always doing that notion gives you the revelation of your natural point of view that says manifestation is occurring as my reality and I want on board. Or you can get on board because you're now relating to humanity as a god creating a species _________ has now that self now let's let's let's all know this real quick okay?
I want you guys to know what it is to have intention. This is very difficult to explain. But the intention is not tense in the human relationship. Your intention is for outcome on the planet Earth and human dynamic. You intend to do this, this and this with your life with your day, with your whatever, to get things done so you can sit back at the end of the day and fulfill yourself with your successes that hopefully outweigh your failures lottie, dottie.
This natural intender is not intention. Right? Let's say you're going to tend to something. There's a vibrational potential. So let's say you're going to tend to A, D and D, tend to your husband, tend to your wife tend to the idea of your children. The lost word in a lot of respects.
So, when you do that, you become a vibration attachment co creation to that vibration, because you are tending to it, you're giving it one thing only…awareness, the ______ right. So at that blending moment of manifestation is the current view, which is the whole of you, by the way, because you're a divinicus because now you're not jumping on board and a vibrational relationship of intention, because that becomes a scope of reality a vibrational match called human. But now your relationship is a different approach life in you are tending to reality through your own divinicus because birthing self, give yourself a name it doesn't matter.
So that's self is realizing at that thing there wants to tend to without provocation without boisterous outcome, without hope, without denial, without hmm what's it gonna do for me? Is it worth my time all that fucking shit? It is a natural co creator of that reality potential and what happens is, is you notice the manifestation between you and that vibration that's starting to create a co creative reality. Now that's as far as I want you to go and value right now. I just want you to feel how you attend to certainties in your mind and maybe, maybe, maybe you can value this.
Your mind is way before your physical reality; but you guys scope your mind and things and betterment which keeps your physical reality vibrationally the same, know that human over here, Homo sapiens. This idea you, you are starting to value potential time-based realities, things of the natural preference.
Now this tending, let's say you're in a physical reality, right? And you're walking down the street right and you want to go into a store you are coming up to a store. You want the door to open by itself. Hear me I know it's a little magical, but it's not magical because it's just the door. Same thing as, what is the difference between the door opening by itself and you grabbing it with a physical idea of kinetic energy? Can I tell you the difference? Belief.
See the door is being created and collapsed every single second, it's actually not moving. It's being created in different ideas of points of now in your reality that give you the notion of a slowdown reality called time. That looks like the doors opening. And that cool. So that door can do the process without you is a kinetic energy because the door doesn't know itself as a need to be opened. The doors the interaction that you create with the door and the door is perceiving the interaction of itself with you as the door.
You never know what the doors gonna know, no reason to. The doors fine, all parts of it glass, metal screws, oil, everything. So let's say you want the door to open by itself. What happens if someone holds it open for you? You tended to the door you want it to open by itself. And it did. But there was a permission slip called another in front of it. Now that's a manifestation of tending that occurs in time. Why didn't it happen instantaneous and the now? Well because of relationship to reality.
Your idea of revealing divinicus self still needs certain attributes of allowable probabilities to occur in something that makes sense to the little young infant divinicus is now being birthed. So this little self goes, someone can open it for me is better than an open by itself now, it may not consciously know that because you're a little baby now, but vibrationally that's what you can accept. All probabilities are on all realities already. But how they vibrate match to the CO creation, reality is directly related to you.
Your worthiness, not your worthiness in realizing you're a creator, but your revelation to the self of creation, how worthy you are to yourself, of knowing yourself as a creator, that portion of yourself will grow into an isness. We use worthiness because this dynamic idea of an infant to worthy yourself to know yourself as a creator until it comes realized that there is no worthiness any longer because there's no question of worthiness, right? So that's going to occur. So it's a phase, it’s an infant stage, if you will. Yes, okay.
So, tending to something is a vibrational match that you are aware. Now, the very, very second you think about it, you need a bus ticket back to fuck, you're going to shut it down. You cannot bring sapient into the divinicus world. The divinicus is a species that exists in a certain vibrational relationship to reality. It is a plane of existence that is not on the equal of a divinicus. Both of you that divinicus and the idea of the sapient or within the construct of view accessible by you. Now that's an honor to do to yourself, to give yourself that ability to realize the separated self from the whole self to becoming one. Extraordinary work really. Ah, okay (laughter).
All right. So I tend to open the door. Now one day, if the door opens by itself, I'm wondering how many excuses you're going to make for it? I've watched so many people on this planet. Try to figure out how things happened. That shouldn't have happened. Now that figuring brings the self of this tending self into an intention self which changes reality. Now what kicks into high gear the memories created in the moment, right? Because it's going to relate to the demand of the ego. So it's going to give its reasons and reasonalities. It is according to its past experience to contain the experience within something logical.
Hence, oh, that's how it happened, ha ha ha (laughter) of course, and then you're just the same old fucking train wreck.
Happens every day. Every day I'm out there giving miracles, giving the relationship of worth back to the collective of humanity, and every day they fight and fight for their own unworthiness. Now the question becomes very honest and intimate, doesn’t it? You want to play? This is not a question go surely, this is a question of internal honesty to really know that you are now this not going to be, you are this. You're tending to vibrational mindful, mindful full of your reality potentials because you're living in the idea dynamic of the now catching up and observing things that are potential than your reality. That mindful potential can be tended to. You tend to one thing two things three things and they become more and more manifested. So you can understand, tend, instead of intention, right? And the idea of time is to tend to a probability with energy follows awareness. Okay.
Now you can't claim and wonder why the opposite side is not doing what they're supposed to be doing because that's a command of egoic. That's a command that shuts down your reality to this framework of a constant known that you all have dynamically master called the mutation separation call it what you will, that's one idea. (deep breathing)
Let's say no, I don't want you to tend to abundance because it's too dynamic for most of you. Some of you that are comfortably nominee abundance in other words, you have no awareness of abundance being lack you're just absolutely vibration not interested in being that struggle of abundance. Of course, you're not going to manifest as ideas of abundance because there's no concern for that, the ones that have concern about abundance and stuff. Don't do that. Don't go to money because that's, that's a safety call that's a go to that's Oh, I can do this and prove to myself Oh my god, that is the biggest train wreck. What you want to do is tend to what is the potential vibration of the driver? The driver is you the passengers is you, now you're going to realize you're driving. You wake up to the Oh, it's me. Oh, right, but without the death. So anything and everything that comes to your reality is something that is a preference now preferences, not excitement, preferences, not outcome preferences not betterment, preferences, natural feeling attraction, and that has to be realized through this divinicus self.
Every day every fucking now realize yourself as attraction be open, open, open, open, open, don't throw up your barriers and stream through life of consciousness with the own demand of your self worth at the cusp of expression every fucking day. To know what is your potential and know the vibration of my preference, and then you can start tending to the relationships around you and manifest them. Not things manifested by human dynamic creature hood, what they think is manifestation. The whole world is manifested, you're not in the third density as Bashar and said You are the third density, you're the whole fucking Gambit, you are creating the entire relationship with the CO creation of all that is called third density, time ,Earth, planets cachaca universe all of it within you created.
Don't want to try to conquer that. You want to know this because this reveals that. Okay?
Take this away. When things come to your reality you don't think on how to create them, make them happen. You tend to it. Let's talk about that before we end tonight's giving’s. When you tend to something, aren't you natural? Let's look at Roxy. I mean, the idea of at certain points, you know, she's both dynamic vibrations, male, female, but when she, when she is in the idea of tending to Tommy, there's an idea of that dynamic, that’s her preference, to tend to Tommy and see his needs without asking him. This knows follows that intention? No. Follows the tending to the reality that's being potential and trusting in valuing and going and expressing those things that she knows is dynamically tending to Tommy to whatever they are dinner, making sure he’s comfortable, whatever tending to his need, to his desires, if you will, relationship idea, you understand?
So that right there is a human thing. It's a natural thing, isn't it? So you understand tending to things. Some of you are hard workers. It's not a good or a bad thing. I would think no one will be envious of another was a hard worker, because that's their idea of themselves. To them, however, they're not working hard. They're tending to their preference, their preference wants a vibrational interaction you want to interact with yourself and in some regards as being at work a lot, you're tending to the natural of you.
Now, the natural is a co creation of Tommy Jean the natural is a co creation of work, the natural is to follow the vibration potential and just give an energy and when the energy starts to call upon you an action, preference offered and continuation of the current, continue without doubt, without hesitation, to realize how manifestation is going to reveal itself to you. You're going to see in time the results of your tending to the natural of you. Catching up if you will.
Remember this is this is an infant stage so you can understand you guys have to plateau yourselves, walk up the idea and give you things remembered as you go to reveal to yourself what you already know. And then you're just gonna evolve from this point, whatever way you want to go. Roxy just asked, does that mean you never see your whole self again? The answer is no. Of course, you are your whole self just from a new perspective. New in time but now always know. Remember guys, you're never going to lose yourself in this equation. You can't miss what you were. Because you are what you are focused on that there's no realization of what's not, what's not happened in the humanity lack always know.