SUNDAY EVENING WITH ROXANNE - LIVE CHANNELING AND Q&A

This teaching is available on YouTube (Odyssey of Ascension Channel) 
Streamed live on Aug 31, 2020
Link: https://youtu.be/zTRewa8CbfA
All belongs to, Odyssey of Ascension channeled and taught by Roxanne Swainhart
Transcribed by Marilyn Holzmann
 
(3:33 Audio time) Greetings to the collective humanity. Really not humans just more of an expression. You're really good at what you do. I don't know if you know that. Perhaps you don't. Perhaps you have a way about you. Hmm. way about yourself. What does that mean? Life is about you. It is all about you. Life will always forever be about but not about an objectivity Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Let's not be objects. The object of my desire. Separated you understand the deal, don't you? But when you are in a particular now, and there is no about you, you lose time you lose personality, you lose resources of objectivity truly, which become is aware of the moment but not in aboutness you're not measuring it. So, so your world is full of about stuff right now. What about this? What about that? Holy shit, you blew up the whole fucking system didn't ya. Good job. So, the system was contorting you to the point of pain. I mean, like real fucking pain. Look, look, look, look, look. 
 
(5:01 Audio) Just because you guys can make your life easier, doesn't mean you're not in pain. See, pain is an object, a production. Even if it's happy, it's still painful. Your emotions might be selling your fucking story. That story says, Oh, this is a good time and it's great cuz we're here and we're having this good time. And I'm gonna keep having a good time. Isn’t that painful? You're looking forward to a good time. I can do this and it'll save me time so then I can be happy but in the meanwhile, I'm going to try to be happy. Anyways, so you are in a lot of pain. And when I mean pain, I don't mean again, human pain because your pain is a version of unconditional love, right? Truly, but it's painful to the fractal right? The fractal is walking around in pain experiencing itself as separated not knowing living your life of ups and downs ins and outs, goods and bad's kibbles and bits lions and tigers. Oh my. It's a great, great game. But I bet you're fuckin sick of it, good because this moment is a law. And that law is attraction. And we're going to run through these laws not in let's say repetition of reminders. You know this by now, in the way it applies to your daily life, as a human, as in a self that you have created. 
 
(7:07 Audio) Distraction is where I'd like to start distraction, distraction would be in the case of what's not now. Anything that is not now is distraction. Where does that lie? In relationship that's where it lies. Now, obviously, everything is fucking now. It's a law. So, the application of the law is always current. However, through your creative skills, you can have a memory. So that memory gives you time, doesn't it? So now you can distract yourself with the element of time. Time is a memory, right? It's what was and what should be or what could be or what ought to be all coming out of the law now, here and now. So, in that we'll go skip along Fandango. Over the law, what you put out is what you get back law of attraction, right? So, let's look at the law of attraction, shall we? 
 
(8:26 Audio) So, if you're putting out a vibrational relationship of worthiness, this is how you attract your reality. It is not attracted through the energetic lack, that you portray as positive or negative. Lack is what you are putting out in order to get back lack is your natural state of the human. It's not just lack full. It's lack itself. What is the lack? What is the lack? I am not myself… starts there done. Everyone wants to fill the empty hole in their heart with objects because objects give an emotional equation of fulfillment instantaneously and then you work the rest of your fucking life to keep it filled. And you fill it with whatever is available in your version of singularity point or all the one now we're talking about the singular truth. The existence, the I Am, says it's filled. Like maybe someone's a hard worker, and they get kudos and arrays for working hard therefore it's reinforced. And that reinforcement validates the self of lack. Now the lack full self is full.
 
Now, now, now, now, now, now, now, now, now, it's empty. And you got to do it again. I used to do that, you used to do things for me. It's empty, because it's not the filling self. It's the emptiness of the lack for self. So that self is the constant vibration as things occur on the planet Earth on a daily basis and you live your life in polarity opposing each other rights and wrongs, left's and rights. good bet all the stuff that you've guys managed to come up with out of your masterful creator of separation, using limitation as your unlimited field of operation. Bravo. Yay, good job. 
 
(10:57 Audio) So that's self, the self that is now starts out life as empty and starts to covet. It grabs whatever the fuck it gets attention. Moms attention, dads attention, grandparents attention, friends, sister brother bla, bla, bla, bla, bla, bla, bla, a lifetime of attention. That attention gets you validated as a self of full and therefore you cycle, and you live that separated life. That's how the universe is attracting your experiences. Not in positive or negative. Let me say that again. Can I say that again? Yes, you me very good. Well, thank you. All right. The universe creation, attraction, whatever the fuck you want to call it doesn't come at you with the tack of a positive or negative. That's your fucking dumb ass, who is assigning that positive or negative. This is why you equate the lack full self and continue to gain the prosperity of an emotional equation somewhere within the field of your own suffering and your own happiness polarity. It worked just perfectly, doesn’t.  Because every now was perfect. It is always perfect. It's filled with everything you need to experience the vibrational attraction which is not coming because the law is here and now which is already arrived. So, if you want to know what the fuck you are as a relationship to the reality of the world, look around, because that's your now and not your world. 
 
(13:00 Audio) So, if you have chosen this class to join in the reindeer games with Miss Roxy. Then you have attracted a potential which you have chosen in the now to arrive at and experience because you use time as an ally, to create choices as an experience of the choiceless self who attracts naturally its own passion and it never questions it. But you have time, so you get to have space and time and choose what you want to do. That's the choice of the fulfilled self that needs nothing to fulfill itself because it is the natural attraction. And there is no stimuli about life on if you should choose this or not. That's the empty self debating itself on where it wants to apply. Its, let's say allegiance of loyalty towards a certain frequency that it reminds itself as purposeful, lack full self-becoming meaningful to itself so we can feel good because that's the only way it knows itself exists to the emotion.
 
(14:03 Audio) Alright. So, this law of what you put out is what you get back does not attract anything but an unconditional reality of potential. Now, on a side note to reiterate an unconditional reality is not not, not, not, not, not. Can you sing about not? Not, not, not neutral. It's full of life. When you meet someone new, you feel them before you meet them. They're not neutral. They're unconditional, because you're gonna put the conditions on, but they're not neutral. They have an expression. Here we go part D. What you put out. 
(15:16 Audio) Let's talk about expression, as it equates directly to the lack self, or to the evolutionary self. The evolutionary self is the one who chooses without debate without about life. You guys think about your lives all the time. You decide what to do. The decisions are made. Never absent from the Now is the absolute self that is passionate. That has no about it. It is the slipstream of the now that occurs in a sequential mania, spontaneous, forever self-discovered. The self is not identifiable, something Roxanne's been tearing apart. The self is a truth. The truth is not defined by the, who? The truth, the singularity, the existence, the one you exist law is an I am that creates a reality through the other laws and experiences itself through the idea of its interpretation, hence self. then sequential-taneous and instantaneously it is expressed. So, what you put out was one what you get back, what you put out is absolutely now as well. You cannot hesitate on putting out because it's already happening in the now. 
 
(16:58 Audio) As soon as you are getting input which you vibe arrived in existence, and it's never stopped. And you've never stopped putting out ever. But in the last self, that stands as an object of the expressed self, the creator of the created, the fractal over here is thinking it is making a difference in the idea of the self. And it's not when it's using the object itself. That's the lack self that continues the lack world. I would like all of you to not answer this. But listen to this as a rhetorical question, and it's going to take fucking brutal honesty, to go to the mirror and look at yourself and says, You're the only one who hasn't changed your life. Am I willing to change my life? Now, that means you cannot choose the vibration of the lack-full self, which means there's no more thinking. None. There's no more assigning value as an object. There's no more separation. There's no more Democrats and Republicans no more COVID no more left, right up down. There's only isness in the now. People don't think they don't know how to live. There's nothing to do when you don't have an object to attain your value and expression in separation and defilement. Well, yeah, because that's the who's you were, who is this? Who is that? That that that these are the selves you create as objectivity relationships. But there is there's an entire now it doesn't assign itself it transcends itself. When you start choosing yourself, then your world starts to change. There's proof positive. Obviously, the world is showing you the proof.  The world is changing because you have contorted yourself to a very uncomfortable position of worth. So therefore the upheaval is a recognition moment for the collective to choose something different about the relationship to that reality with themselves and most of humans as refresher course are choosing sides that's their truth that's their self, that's their world that's what they put out that's what they get back. The self that is evolutionary stop trying to make yourself so goddamn happy. Stop wasting your fucking time on all the little fascination shit. Unless you're the Creator who loves to create fascination distractions as a way to waste your fucking time. 
 
(19:47 Audio) That's not wrong masters. That's the self that you create for the experience which is absolutely 100% equal to all the other sells you've ever done. But what is the difference? The difference in this statement is, you know, honesty again, brutal honesty, it shatters realities. You must know something. And I'm going to tell you what it is that you have created― an opportunity to awaken before death. So, you have an opportunity to choose the nature of yourself, which is no-about. So therefore, there's no deciding. There's no debate. There's no objectivity. There's no fear. There's no wonderment. There's none of that. All of that is the lack full self, knowing itself is not creator and the false self is the vibrational attraction that changes reality in frequency attraction that shows you― not the objects outside of you changing what you guys are still trying to fucking manifest all the crap in the world because you lie your happiness in objects. That the change comes in relationship to the self you feel you again now that cannot be defined it cannot be sold. It cannot be attained because it is not absent. It is to be discovered. Yes, discovered in yourself. Okay, so, here's Roxanne fucking train wreck all our life, absolutely worthless, beaten down by society, always trying to make people happy, blah, blah blah. forging up her masculine self. Meanwhile, she's sucking cock in fucking whenever she can, right. She loves match camping. figured out she's going through live she wants to kill her, kill herself. She hates herself. She loves herself. She does all this stuff and then click. Oh my god, I'm a fucking girl. Oh fuck. How is that possible? My psychiatric blow your brains out? No, no, I'm disappointing everyone it's wrong. It's wrong. It's fucking death. Give me a god damn God, fuck and blow my brains out slap my wrist pull my heart out let me get out of this goddamn prison was fantastic. So, she may seize up what was it… even paying attention? WORHTINESS. Because she was taught external objects matter more than the internal self. You're taught the same thing I bet you put more pride and prejudice in your image then you do your worthiness. I wonder if…how many of you even recognize your worthiness is your cause you're clever? Is your worthiness because you have retirement? Because you look for other people to validate your worthiness? Well then you need a big old fat fuck combust to get back to fuck man fuck land fuck me fuck me fuck land because I'm relying on everyone else to give me my fucks. Yes. Outstanding fucking.
(23:24 Audio) So instead of slitting her wrists. So, this instead of killing herself Roxanne, Roxanne did what what did she do? She chose she chose to be deathly afraid every day scared to death. To find vibration. She had no fucking idea. She had no idea about awakening or all the stuff that awakened her say awakening is right. No defilement. She just knew there's no way she had to figure out why. Because the outside was failing her. Because it was another version of prison that she was in failure of them! Are you changing yourself to fit the fucking outside? Are you changing yourself to fit the outside? And then you are the lack of self the internal self has no about its life. It is life. It is life it is life it is now did she choose and look at herself about?  Of course, she's an evolutionist! That means she's going to go through 1000 fucking truths. She's going to go and rip herself apart as she journeys. She's gonna find moments of happiness for no reason. And then she's gonna seek happiness again, and she's gonna seek identity again. And then she's gonna dismantle it. It's not gonna be fixed in a day. There's no magic pill. There's the mastery of the journey, the journey that says I am! The journey doesn't say, oh, calm down, be emotional! Be responsible! Be respectful! We are raw creators. Who the fuck? Tell me who created the sun? Some lollipops and rainbow fucking diaper eating rice bolita diaper where motherfucker? Fuck that. A God created their son. Guy is a creator. She's not in peril. She's not like, Oh, I need to be healed. You guys are killing me. Maybe it's you. Maybe it's you motherfuckers who are looking at the planet attracting a reality that's belongs to…who, who, who?  A reality that belongs to YOU! 
 
(26:06 Audio) What you put out is what you get back you are interpreting what you put out! Nobody and I mean nobody not one fucking person is living your truth. No. Oh you can hope. Hey man we agree on that don't wait. I need you to validate myself can so you can you be on my side being republican with me? Can you be a democrat? Hmm, can you? Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey Joe Biden. he's a he's a child molester. Let's be together and make them up and be a child molester. Let's distract and fill or lack-full self up, because Joe Biden touches girls in a weird way. Make that up come on let's make myself up and just fucking distract myself because I have no cutting will to have the courage to tear down― I am and find it! Well this cunt did. Yes, she did. So, she tore it all down lost her friends lost her job got unemployment maybe some of you know the story maybe not but here's what happened.  
 
(27:34 Audio) She got in a group of people that are awakening and she was conforming. Oh, it's this this blah blah, but then that internal self to same one that got Roxy to step out as Roxy that self-Roxy was an expression but Roxanne is of what? Not a who. No one none of you are who's none of your fucking owls right? Who am I? Oh my. Those are the selves you create. You are a creator that expresses what? Who’s, right? You. Right now, we're expressing a what? A human? No. Who a humans. That's what you are, because you are the creator of that. Alright, so so she woke up and then she started seeing that the awakened world was not going to fit her singular truth any longer. Because they were asking her to be a man again, not in the idea of going back to Roy. But in the idea of conformity, jumping on bag and wagons because you have no worthiness and worthiness. Let me tell you something, is infant. It's a child. It's a mere fucking embryo. And it doesn't feel like shit right now. But do you guys have the courage to follow the truth? Not a higher truth, not a lower truth. Because all truths are truth. Everything is self-created through the idea that now. But when it's available to you, and you know it is the one that says, fuck you mom and dad goodbye. It's the one that says yes, I will do that. Because it is my choice. The one that says, you know what? The one that says, you know, I loved you when we first got married, but now I gotta go. Or do you want to stay a prisoner? They call it a prison planet because you guys think someone was putting you in prison. Fucking the masses. That's assignment. Blaming the annunaki, slaves. Look how many fucking stories you told us. Not one of you knew the truth. So, but you discovered it. Because you are woke and now it's there. Do you have the courage though? Now we're talking the validation through that story of worthiness to be chosen. It is excruciating because the byproduct, the byproduct is going to be tearing off a layer of skin at a time and pulling off your own shell and you're tearing the fucking ligaments and attendance off of you. And that is going to be represented in pain, awareness of the pain. You have been in awareness of the pain that you have kept yourself in. So, you're going to wake up, deconstruct the lack-full self, and go through the pain of that and it's going to hurt because you're going to get the emotional relevance, emotion. It's going to tell you the pain you've kept yourself in, in the prison planet, but only one person. Only one person keeps yourself in that planet. You. Because truth lies in the eye of the beholder no truth can be accepted until the singularity accept the truth all at one, one, or all. You guys know picking this up are you still out there? Fucking assigning it to things. The universe on the universe, the universe actually thing, right? It's a thing, right? It's in charge you. Wake the fuck up. See good thing about this as I can talk like this because there's no compassion in here anymore. There's no empathy, there's no sympathy. Now there's only unconditional that's why I can channel this way because the channeler doesn't have those as valuable. Therefore, when I would come through you guys get this version. If it was through a validation of compassion.  You don't get this version, so what did you attract?  Potential. It doesn't mean you turn into a fucking asshole or a cunt, it means you turn into yourself the self to be discovered the natural self the way you look at reality what's out about yourself. Remember you created this little guy here's the creator looking back looking at yourself What are you doing wrong? Once a while…wait a minute. Wait a minute. Let's think about this. We might fuck this up. Turn it into bacon and enjoy breakfast. Fucking eat that fucking guy. Like the Creator is a natural thing. You guys only know that unnatural portions of you. Through the natural self of creation, the one that creates its unknowable self and the value of that is a measurable all. And in that in measurable realities of creation you create the ability to measure. And the game is the measurement is the standard. The objectivity is the standard, you only know yourself as lack full. So, since you are full of lack, what you put out is what you get back and you guys are running around wondering why things aren't changing. All you do is just change labels. You redefine yourself, third density, forth density and you give yourself new names, but it's the same relationship, isn't it? It's emptiness, needing to be filled through objectivity. The next time a vegan fucking cunt tells you to don’t eat meat. Slap them. Fuck you. Stop being a goddamn preacher. Or you can be nice and turn the other cheek. Now which one is judgeable? Did you see yourselves? Slap the fucking bitch for doing what I'm telling you how to be. Someone needs to wake her up. Slap her and say you know what? Stop being a preacher, or you can turn away now which one's right? Both. Which one is judgeable? Only that you judge. 
 
(34:33 Audio) Because you are the creator of your reality. you interpret.  Isn’t that your experience? I will create my experience they're interpreting my reality. That's how I'm doing you guys think you're manifesting but every fucking now is showing up and 99% of your bitching about your fucking reality and you're wondering why you create these things. And your little intentional mind is Hocus Pocus yourself out of death to mantras and a whole bunch of sequels and all the fucking things you can come up with. And then living that reality which what you put out is what you get back, but the same thing is what? If you say to Roxanne found her fulfillment is either death or become something and now she digs both, you know, a little bit of both more feminine than masculine, like really can't be defined can it? Just the moment when you get used to that, then the definitions fall away, then Roxanne's masterclass you add now boy come in just talk about the now, now, is just now there's no memory there's no future all you are is right now. Can you imagine if you were only now how your life would truly be there would be no thoughts of about you? There would be no thoughts of anything you had to do need to do or want to do. You're just doing because there's no purpose no intention, no outcome because that lies in time. 
Oh, so Roxanne has a bit of an experiment on herself. What she does is she likes to explore ourselves. Let's talk about that for a second. Let's consider for a moment that she wants to equate a self. That's a version of herself that's soft. So, she attracts a frequency that allows her to channel a softer person. And then she gets to feel that and then realizes, that's not my nature. That's a channeled self. Right? So that channel itself becomes an experience but it's not the nature of herself because she's on a journey to discover, the what? Not the who but she uses who's to discover the what. So, Roxanne would probably slap her vegan breath. Okay, look how arrogant that is. Don't you know that's another fucking church? You guys really think you're saving the fucking planet when the planet isn't going to go anywhere? Because the planet doesn't exist as a frequency of unity. The planet exists in the bubbles that are being created by the singularity now. Any of you seeing Earth right now? As a whole? 
 
(37:37 Audio) I'll call you a fucking liar. I will it might be your truth but it's a fucking true of lying. Because right now there's only thing is is right now and none of you are in space looking at Earth as one object because it's not! It's a co creation of an infinite number of bubbles. Tiny little thought bubbles co creating with each other for the experience of forever. We are thought creating vibrational realities slowing light into finite and gross matter to give ourselves gravity and experience of weight and physical worlds to explore, but they're not set! They're created. So, Gaia is a co-creator. And the way you see Gaia is the way you see your experiential self that is evolving. So, if you think you're going to save a whole bunch of animals by becoming a vegan, then you will create animals because you're a vegan. That's what you'll do. And if you feel good about that, well then have your pride and have your prejudice. But when you come across a lightworker and you try to bring that fucking church down upon the head of someone who realizes their worthiness. But don't be surprised if you get a broomstick broke off in your fucking house. Because there is only worthiness in creation. Lack is an expression of worthiness. So, you're a mere fucking Xerox when you come out a lightworker like that.
 
So, the four Laws turned into five laws, the here and now was an interesting concept. It was always there. It was written before you guys even met Bashar. But it was a process. So, let me let me give you a little bit of hint about the evolutionary process so you guys can get comfortable with your ladders you've set up. You guys got to stop holding on to your fucking memory truths. Because the change are coming more rapidly now. So, what was true last year will not be true anymore to you. Because the evolution needs rungs of the ladder in order to reveal itself its next evolutionary enlightenment. That's why you are ascending. That's thing and climbing, whatever you want to call it. So you have to have truth in order to get the truth because the concept that is unintelligible to the self in this current relationship with the self can't get that frequency unless there's something that leads in time to there because you guys set it up that way you set up time. So, you're going to evolve. In the natural state, we don't evolve, we're always evolving. We don't measure it because it's a constant change. That means more not the same. Change is not using the same material and decorating it with a new colors. Change is growth, natural evolution, undiscovered, discovery, right? The unknowable known as forever. So, I would pay attention to you guys now. Pay attention to you tear down your egos. You will live a life of such freedom and such fucking abundance that you will throw up and be embarrassed on how awesome you can be without lifting a fucking effort finger or your move you'll, you'll, do what Roxy does this is Roxanne's job. Oh, she's having good fucking time, you see this is the nature of herself. She knows what it takes to tear it down. So, she loves this, so she attracts this reality because it is worthiness. 
 
(42:09 Audio) Excellent. Let's look at that. What you put out is what you get back. What you put out is what you get back. So, if you are empty, dividing yourself, objectifying yourself, about yourself, measuring yourself, questioning self-doubting yourself, you are living the potential to tear yourself apart and turn yourself into a bumbling mess have no purpose no meaning and no identity. And the only thing is there is an infinite self that will be nourished. Once again, through choice, the astounding amount of a button. It will make you puke on how awesome you can be. Why do I say that? A lot of you guys out there go no, I can handle my awesomeness. Let's see your awesomeness is in time. You've been chasing, seeking and pursuing happiness. Right? Always looking forward. What about what about oh, I want to do this. Oh, I wanted, but see when it comes. Most of you either shit on it doubted or if you're there you fuck it up in one way or the other because you're not worth it. See that's why lottery winners become broke. Very, very, few of them keep their money because they're not worth the money. How silly that sounds. But see things are vibration, things aren't defined. So, if you are worthy of yourself and you start to get awesomeness and you start to live a life of abundance, well then you are going to experience the most painful thing you've ever done. More painful than tearing apart your bullshit suffering. Your ADHD fucking identity. Your PTSD fucking crutches hmm all that stuff you define yourself panic attacks all of that shit good, good, that's a world that's true good, good. Get the fuck out of this world and go back to your sandbox your dirty fucking go. Go, back to your pity parties go! Masters stay because when you become awesome the bubble becomes apparent. So that means every single time you choose awesomeness you grow and light and you're going to attract bloodsuckers. Remember Abraham you all know it's speaker collective like Seth remember the term blood sucking vampires? They are energy sucking vampires but they're not going to literally suck your energy. Oh, oh my god I’m being sucked. All you have to do is tell them to fuck off the ones that are dumbing you down that are toxic that are telling you no, that are draining of your fucking attention. You got to stand them up and say look, go be worthy. Get the fuck out of my world. Don't try to drain me go and find your own happiness. Don't come to me. Some fucking cunt comes to Roxanne sees Roxanne. Oh, I love you, you, love your work. I love your work some fucking hippie fuck right. Like 60 something years old still living the same algorithm finds Roxanne. Like the first bucket thanks, she says Roxanne you need to be more of the divine feminine. You're a little bit too brutality. This bitch was attracted to Roxanne so Roxanne what can be taught a fucking lesson by some fucking hippie fuck that attracted to her Roxanne never solicits people. She attracts because she loves herself and that was the light that this lady missed! She looked at Roxanne as wrong. Oh, it's my purpose to come and tell you how to do things right Roxanne fucking fuckin pastor you fucking human. You know what it takes? Raw. Just fucking raw to tear it down. Roxanne swells with isness. So, so what happens in this awesomeness as you choose it, you're going to have to swallow and accept you're awesome. And that takes patience masters. It's not going to happen tomorrow, or next fucking year. It's going to happen in the now as the now of constant change. Roxanne teaches humility, allowance or surrender, trust, courage to choose the self, the unknown self. See the lesser of two evils as a review is, I know that this evil is my habit. I can say something, I can bite my tongue, I can speak up, I can give advice. I can cause that person pain. I can rule my own world with my arrogance. Now that's painful, but that's the lesser pain so it's an easier choice. You know what's painful. I mean, like really painful? To choose the awesome the awesome is not happiness that you perceive in an object again, let's be clear, don't fucking use the objectified self-use the self that is here and now law. I am here now putting out what I get back. And I'm using we to do it one or all all one. So, it's always we! It's never I am and them, it's all of us together. So, in that moment you choose worthy no matter what the screen of life is begging you to buy into, because that's all it is. Right? It's a placebo. And then it becomes whatever you say it is in relationship that you screened as your truth becomes your reality. What you put out is what you get back. 
 
(49:02 Audio) Right. So, the confusion set and for Roxanne trying to go through all these different selves, she found Esmerelda, Casita, witches is in her past. She likes what she's been witches many times, because she likes magic. She likes alchemy, she likes potions. So, she finally finds it and brings a part of her life, so she gets to express it but she's also a magician, musician. So, she tapped into a musical self and start playing with her flute, but she's also a speaker. Now, this collective speaker, this self that she is, she has the gift of gab, right. She knows how to put it together and just naturally come she could speak she has all the courage, everything that it takes, but this is not to be mimicked. This is to be what example. It's not the definitions. Remember, please remember about the objectivity. You don't have to be Speaker or healer or a medium until it says I want to do that I want to be a Reiki healer but see if you're a Reiki healer for money and for objectivity but then you're only going to attract lack. The ones the Reiki healers that are the masters at it don't promote themselves. They don't get degrees. They just do it you can get a degree I'm not saying that's right or wrong that's part of the process, but let's be fucking now don't live in time. I don't give a fuck about time. I don't care how many levels you're at. Fuck that. That's an identity. Now, a Reiki healer doesn't need a class. A Reiki healer knows itself as the discovery of healing through Reiki or healing through crystals or healing through tone or healing as the purple Ray light of healing hands, the same hands the Christ conscience used. Did he have a class? Did he go to a teacher? He let go of the imagery and decided to find himself and had the courage to choose despite what the reflection despite the fears you guys have made yourself so fucking comfortable everything is right there for you. You can get it there's immediate gratification you need it ever it's not there it's not now it's not purpose if it can’t be measured it’s shit. Yes, well John yes good job on the human you're not humans. You created them your fucking masters.
 
(51:57 Audio) So in order to do that we're gonna keep resounding that fucking beautiful clanging cymbal, that you got to choose I am to experience I am. But if you keep choosing, I am not through the fortitude of some fucking book. Some person's experience Checking the truth on the future not having the courage to trust yourself in the moment then you're going to live that life…but if you're comfortable with that life okay rock and roll we don't care what the fuck you want we don't give a fuck no one really cares anything about you why because you're indistinguishable you're law one I exist you're here forever. No one's offended at you or me that's just a fractal this little fucking world is the only thing that takes offense because that's the game and understood itself. But it also it feels good, doesn't it? You think we feel good out here? We don't feel good. We're beyond measurement. You can't fucking define it the moment you define what you think it is to be a nature of yourself the natural creator within your dumbing it down to a dull fucking grey. Bright rainbow…crushhhhh. This is happy everybody, look, I've made happy in two fun size. Oh god. Roxanne says he's letting his crazy out she's nuts. That's another thing she thought she was done. She thought she went off the deep end. All the selves she's talking to all the fucking things passing through all the fucking little things skirting around in the world in my scene, these fucking shadows are those real beings she's seeing is she in their imagination because she starts to realize it's all fine. So, when she's in and out of reality where is real? Oh my god, there is no real because it's all real no matter where you are. Did you ever think about that? Like an Alzheimer's person and you're going oh, they're suffering. Oh, fucking arrogant fucks. You think they're suffering? I know. They're just not focused in your world. Because they've lost interest in you and your world. And you want to give them medicine. Hey man that’s the human game. Go ahead. Go ahead. Go ahead. I'm not talking to humans. Anyways, yeah, well, well. Wow. Yeah. All right. Yeah. So, some of you may say these words. Thanks Roxanne, for the reminder. It's not a reminder. It means it's still in your fucking now and you haven't done the work on it yet. Let's refresh. We're gonna give you something hang on. I'm just gonna enjoy this tea. 
 
(54:49 Audio) When it is in your now it is there to be understood. Not in lessons or purpose to make yourself no more knowledgeable or better that human. It is there for you to relate to something of a frequency that would expose a limitation to you because you are an evolutionist in a game of separation to remember to remember we member to become a member of yourself, again right? So that remembering is the attraction to show you how you're relating to reality and if you have the humility to see that an A is you B accept that you created that belief system and see transcend it through the allowance of it but not to choose it ever fucking again. Then what happens to it? Core lessons right transfigures, into what? The known. So, it’s gone Puff the Magic Dragon lived by the sea and then the mist and then it's gone. It's a fart, and they're going to whisper it's contained nicely in your soul, you guys social memory complex. That means you'll never use it again unless it's valid in the time and then that vibrational relationship won't be the emotion, it'll be the ability to equate it to the moment as a tool. It might be, you know how to teach it. You experienced something of fear about worthiness, then you attract a student and a student, if you are choosing to accept them what you can and remember, of course, and as just hang on, don't think everyone's a student, everyone's a teacher, stop it stop with the fucking hero fucking definitions. If you're offering someone experience, and they're still theorizing then they are the fucking student. But it doesn't mean you're dominating. It means you're humble that you're willing to allow your light out. But that's a moment of choice. You don't have to, because there's no one in charge. Sometimes you get a sense of people that they're just so full of diarrhea, that their actual vibration is oozing the amount of gluttony and you know, if you pop it there, it can explode all over you. And you don't want that. Maybe you just don't want to teach some of these people, or you don't have to because there's nobody in charge. No one's judging. Nobody, nobody, no one ever, ever is measured except the eye of the beholder. 
 
(58:00 Audio) So, when you have a natural self, that is a speaker. The speaker will formulate as words of the moment and they will flow in, like the seamless idea of creation and its constant change. You never have to think about the words and all of you can speak because you are natural channels of your natural self, because you are creating and incarnation. So, the Pleiadians, the Arcturians, the prominent Zephyrs, the draconian, the argonians, the sineouns, the annunaki, the essanni, the zeta, reticular are all channeling their natural selves. And the reason it's difficult on earth is because you are channeling it through a set of belief systems. And then each experience within that belief system experience itself, but the opportunity one day to awaken to the self as an observer and that observer will be chosen to be a continuation or to not. And who chooses? Well you, right? So, if you want to purpose, choose one, if you want to have meaning, and find it because the human knows how to do that very well. But if you leave the point of view of the human, and you start becoming the creator self, the infinite self that hasn't absolutely no idea what it's supposed to do. There's no how to do this. You get that? But you just do in the now there's no handbook. You know, Beetlejuice had the movie, right? The handbook for the recently deceased that was a way to go. There's no handbook for a century because There's no standard. And that's why unconditional applies to Roxanne in such great vitality and vigor and representation because she doesn't give a flying fuck. Because she lost all of everything. She accepted all of her loss. And with that, there's nothing to lose, because she accepted at all. So, she was not fighting for an identity. She lost all of it, to realize the self that was creating identity. And those identities created was the journey that she represents for you guys to take up and choose yourselves. She's not a leader, neither of you. You're not a follower neither she you guys are co-creators playing the fucking game and the simplicity of that it just happens now forever. Cause effect all that's part of the game. Assignment definition objectivity subjectivity, hot, cold and red and blue. All part of the experience of humanity. So, when you start to choose the self, your world will change. You're going to have to be courageous though because a lot of people still rely. Let me say that again, rely on you as an identifiable validation for them. And then one fundamental point of self-awareness that you're going to realize that you can no longer be a dependent for somebody. Now is the courage. Can you choose to sever that tie and allow that person to see the beauty, the beautiful self they are, without the dependency and the reliability on you to validate itself. Cut that dependency relationship and allow them to see themselves naked and afraid. And then what they do? They'll find themselves in the now worthy maybe just a hint. And maybe they'll even go find some more misery. But you showed them the light of themselves. That's what enlightenment is self-discovery. All right, I'm not gonna stick around for questions. Roxanne is very well versed and answering questions. So, I'm gonna skip along Fandango member then Moody Blues? Okay good. Crew?  (transmissions completes and Roxanne shares)
 
ROXANNE SHARES AND ANSWERS QUESTIONS
(1:02:50 Audio) There's about an hour that's good. Hey guys. Perfect yeah very good. Hey, all right listen, if you guys got questions? You can go ahead and let me we read. Okay, if there's any questions go ahead and type them in right now and I'll answer some questions for you. And if not, then we will keep rolling in the now.  I don't lock my door too much. I'd like to share something with you guys. I'd like to share Hi, I baby when when I started to realize I was talking to my master class on Wednesday on this I think it was the week before, but I was waiting. I wanted to share with you guys I was waiting I had an idea of time. And the time said I'm going to have a house somewhere else to live besides the apartment here in San Antonio. And I realized one weird moment that I was not being now but again it's a journey, so you never know when you're going to get the fucking insight All I know is insight keeps fucking happening. So, I did you know some of you that come to the classroom but hardy already heard this, but my apartment was just plain. I mean, I had my alter, my flute, a couple of things. You know, we had our Legos and we have a couple of predators and stuff up there. So, we had, you know things right. So, we had those guys right. Can you see him okay? Predators I can't see the angle and some Legos, some hats you know, I got my brooms. What I was doing was waiting for the perfect time. And then I was like, God dammit, when's the perfect now? That's what I had to realize that I started to express my reality in the now and I started to change my reality. Right. Started to add things in. You know, we got some toys and some Godzilla. You know some air filters and I had this girl on Etsy create those you know we got Tommy slither in and we got a couple new chairs, so we started changing our reality and I realized that those things expressed reinforced myself.  So I was like wow I was waiting see everything is in the now look at these good these beautiful fucking you know just these things that silly as they may seem to the product mind of value to be measured in the productivity of the self was taught to the systematic idea. It made no sense. Okay, it didn't make sense. What what is this show? Yeah. Hang on, hang on guys. I gotta I gotta move this. Okay. So what I realized was that I was holding myself in the future on then of decorate the house you know, and I didn't have you know all the money to do this one time my money comes like it does it comes in the now a little bit here little bit there a little bit here a little bit there. But I've always had the money in the now to pay the rent, pay the electricity, to buy food, you know, so the money left me and it just started being the abundance, but I had to take the courage, you know, have the courage to choose when I didn't have the money and time but I had the money in the now and to start vibrating here…ready, worthiness. So, I started making my reality match my truth expressed it you know, expressed it. I upgraded my computer. Some of you guys know that I upgraded the TV. We got a nice radio and got a couple of lamps. These are material things, right? But they are material things, but the relationship is not material. They're not objects pay attention to that. They're not objects. They are subjective expressions. They're outward reflections of self. So, my house was empty. Right? And you know what, uh, why was empty is because I was waiting in time. I was like, what am I doing? Why why can I why can I have something now? Where you can dumb as I was like, oh yeah. Why the fuck am I not doing that? So, I started, I accepted the reality. So um, you know, I'm not saying go out and buy stuff and do all what I'm saying is pay attention to the now. Because it's not about fixing the world. I guarantee you that, but you can do that and fix the world and sustain it. Because that's how polarity stays is when you put out polarity you get back polarity when you put out get back, stop using that self and start using the intuition self. Now it's scary. And I have students, you can talk to them. And they're they're very scared to do what we did together. They had the courage to throw their entire lives away and start over, but not start over, just start now. The new self, the new self to discover not the old self to maintain, not the self that lies in time then that prides itself on a personality of misery or prejudice or taking sides or opposition or the imagery through an idea of whatever's current. That's accepted, because they have no value in themselves. These these people that we attracted and worked with together to discover myself discover their own courage. Left their jobs left their houses left, their husbands left their wives did a whole bunch of things to find I AM because they were in a system. It is absolutely non offensive to choose yourself, although people will be offended. They will be because they're depending on you. And they will do everything to keep you in your dull light. They will use guilt, they will use threats, they will use everything, you're going to get in trouble, you're getting all that stuff. And I found out that now, choosing myself was worthy. I discovered that like four or five months after I started channeling, the people that helped wake me up didn't like what I was saying. Because I was invalidating reptilians or negative beings. We're the only ones have seen things negative because we live in a world of separation. These are the stories we told ourselves. They're stories that have a polarity. And then we wake up to the polarity and then we have to have the courage to let go of truths that defined us. And then we'll be undefinable and non-imaged in the now and that is an empty and a lonely and an uncertain be. But then you start feel the isness when you start to choose the worthiness and the only thing that fucking happens is attraction of worthiness and your world becomes stunningly outstanding in measurable and prices. And I'm not talking about money and fucking cars and houses and all that perfect twin flames. I'm not talking about the things you identify as happy. I'm talking about the worthiness ISNESS starting to feel alive again, to get up in the morning and never worry, to not worry what's coming and what doesn't come to never think about what your action is. 
 
(1:11:21 Audio) Can you ever imagine not thinking about what you're doing in the now in any way shape or form? Feeling like a cup of coffee and it's your third cup of coffee? Should I have a cup of coffee? Getting a craving for a big fucking steak. I can't because I'm wanting to speak a truth in front of somebody. All right, I might get down and I might hurt their feelings. Really? It's not wrong to be anything in this world. It's not wrong to be anything in anymore. And we're not saying that we don't give a fuck if you're vegan, if you're republican or democratic, give a fuck what you are, I don't I don't care. I'm just showing you you have a relationship to that truth inside of you. That can be observed through the Awakener. And if you're willing to choose the natural self, I guarantee you, you will not use the polarized self ever again. But you'll have to transcend it. And you'll have to tear it down in the now and it won't happen in any particular time. And it won't happen in any particular way. But what will happen is you will change and you will know your change. And it will be oh, god damn, it will be beautiful. That is for sure. No, Siri, I don't want your help. Press Siri per second. Okay, um okay, let me go to questions why is this way up here? Oh, there it is. Okay go good good. Papa Papa Papa mama mama mama mao. Okay. Stand by guys me like ninja turtle via pop up, up, up, up up up. 
 
QUESTIONER: I've been seeing a wall of bubbles in between my sleep and awake. Sometimes they look 3d and someday like 2d. Do you have any input on this? 
ROXANNE: I don't have the input on the idea of what you would consider an answer. So, in the mastery what I discovered inside of dreams is not the definition. What I've discovered is twofold with dreams, one thing is how I feel about that representation. Do the bubbles feel a particular way to you? Sometimes I get really obvious. The second part is I get really obvious, hey, this is coming. I get like symbols and people but there, you know, there's like a coffee mug as a symbol. What's the coffee mug? Do you fires a symbol? Is it scary? Or is it warms? You know that kind of thing. So I use the two things if it's blatantly obvious, then that's a relationship of what I'm transcending when I'm done with if I get a dream, but if I get something that is symbolic, then I use how do I feel about that? How does the 2d 3d feel? Is the representation of 2d flat 3d round? What are you doing in those ideas? Sometimes they look 2d sometimes they look 3d. Maybe you're leaving a particular world in going to another but don't assign 2d and 3d is the permanency of you. How does it feel 2d might be representing here but you don't have no idea what 4d looks like. So you use 2d 3d instead of 3d 4d, because you can equate what 4d is because you've never fucking been there as this self and you're talking to yourself in the dream of the self, so therefore, you got to use the feelings and then trust them. Because all I'm going to do is interpret that through me. Don't fucking listen to me. I don't have your truth you do. But use the tools that I've discovered maybe as a way to understand your dreams. 
 
QUESTIONER: Okay, 13 sign in scenario astrology or wherever. 
 
ROXANNE: There's a few cases that 13 sign but he comes around every 2000 years or so and i think he's bad currently right now so like, I'm a scorpion instead of a Sagittarius but as far as that goes, I still think I'm a Sagittarius because I was born into a Sagittarian idea. I did nothing but the person at the front the class and I'll go first. 
 
QUESTIONER: Sometimes after three or four hours of focusing everything I see will shake and usually feel shaking in my body.
 
ROXANNE:  Yeah, don't focus for three or four hours. That seems like an effort. What are you focusing on for three or four hours one candle, or in particular now? You know, what are you focusing on focusing on Christine? Focusing for three or four hours is extremely stressed you as strenuous idea, I never focus I'm always now and then when I find myself focusing on distraction, then I changed my focus into something that's slipstream something that's, you know, effortless. If I want to grab my flute, this is always see then that change focus. So, find something to shift your focus if you're focusing for three or four hours that hurts. Yeah, that's I can't remember learning this new song anyways, change focus. You know, yesterday I made a new dish. It was a casserole on with an iron skillet, macaroni and cheese right? Elbow macaroni, five cups of shredded extra water extra sharp white New York cheddar and I mixed in some beef with it, it, never destroyed me it was so fucking good. So that was not a distraction that was a passion. So, if you're focusing on a purpose, then you're distracting yourself with an image to become something and that's lack because you're enough why because one are all in all in one. So, without you nothing exists. Nothing. everything collapses without you. The whole thing goes to non-existent we're all gone and guess what? We didn't even know we're gone because we have no relative relationship with the now of experience and we have no idea that we're gone but right now I know I'm here. So, I'm on the existence side of things and you got to be enough if you're here with me because creationist chose you to exist. If you've been chosen to exist, you don't need to become better. But humans told us to become better because we're not enough because we're pieces of shit. But by the law of Abraham, we have to earn our way back were born of original sin, we have to rise up to the occasion we have to give thanks to an outside source. You know, I'm out. I am. Right. So be enough with that and focus on passion. And passion is on boxing shelves are stocking shelves at Walmart. Passion is cleaning your floor for no reason out of the synchronicity of when you're supposed to do what your passion is. Starting a new hobby for no fucking reason, just to explore it. Passion is going to work and being yourself. Passion is the now it's not what you define yourself as, so I go from one passion to the next to the next. But they're never passions identified. They're just my NOWS. There was a question. 
 
QUESTIONER: (1:21:07 Audio) I feel like people around me are showing, showing down my spiritual slowing down. 
 
ROXANNE: No, that's what you're interpreting. Gerard, you're interpreting they're slowing you down. Don't be a victim. They're not slowing you down. If they're in the idea of I don't want to play with you then cut them the fuck off. Grow a set a big hairy balls and fucking cut them off. Don't play with them anymore. Unfriend them. Don't talk to them say hey, look, you're a little bit of a train wreck for my evolution gotta go bye because it is 2014 the highest act of love is to love yourself. Now that's not at the expense of others. People might view you as that because they're depending on you, so use me to help me or whatever. And then they might be depending on you. Okay, and they may view you as an idea of that person at the expense of others. But you know, when you're at the expense serve others when you lie, cheat and steal and you're not lying cheating, nor are you stealing. You're not at the expense of others you're the discovery of yourself. So, if you think they're dumbing you down, well then cut them the fuck off and stop playing a victim. Say goodbye. Okay. Much love to you. 
 
QUESTIONER: Coalescence stuff how to?
 
ROXANNE: Coalescences stuff is just to accept it. Look, when I realized I'll give you an easy one, I realized that on my blame on my parents for the drive they gave me and the way they made me feel always blaming always putting me down all of that stuff because they had no fucking self-worth. They're just a bunch of fucking lack folk humans running around trying to figure out the game. All my hate all my rage, all my blame on my and all that they did to me, was mine. It's what I coveted what I created as an identity. And I assigned it to them as blame causality, objectivity, right? So, I had to accept that. And that took humility. And in the now I did not let them do those things to me that they wanted to because they still tried. They wanted me to not be Roxanne. They told me I was a sinner. They told me I was needed psychiatric care; they would tell me and try to give me advice on a 53-year-old woman leave me the fuck alone. I got this, right. And then they change the relationship because they knew they couldn't have a relationship with me that way. So, they changed, and we have a great relationship now. But we're not like you know, buddy, buddy, like a, you know, a relationship of friends that people have with their parents. They lost the parent identity. They don't want to lose the parent identity so they can maintain it. So that is keeps the relationship at a certain frequency. But there's no longer a definition. I've transcended that because I accepted that was my shit. My belief system, my hate my anger, my rage, my hope, my compassion, my empathy, my sympathy everything that I defined myself my world attracted as an objectivity became my belief system to discover, transcend and coalesce by accepting it, and not not, not, not, not, not, not, choosing it! Sometimes I'm very difficult. Sometimes I did choose. I got so mad, I get no arguments, but I did it to discover myself. And it was never a mistake. Mistake is for some fucking cunt. You're not a mistake. None of you have ever made mistakes your teachers taught you because they're fucking cunts. Your parents taught you because fucking cunts. This right here. Now they're forgotten cunts so you can say oh yeah, they're just forgotten Gods but they're still putting cunts. So, this right, here right? Is a new self.  Who's this? Now chooses creates now great now creates now creates. How the fuck? Can this self ever be a mistake? If it created a new point of view? You're not a fucking mistake. Don't let him sell you that. Kick him in the fucking nuts. I love the broomstick one that was good. Anyways, so if they're dumbing you down and you're just choosing to go quit your job and be down when you're playing a fucking victim, I get no fucking sympathy, boy because I ain't got sympathy. It becomes choice master. So, get off your fucking hidey and cut the motherfuckers off your training you remember when Abraham said don't fucking suck off you figure you're supposed to do this here. Look, everyone kinda want to read my Facebook page. I'll tell you everyone's trying to make each other do fucking shit. Stop, get busy with your internal world! Because you're creating an entire new reality. Yeah, there's not going to be a whole lot of people in there. I guarantee you that. But there's going to be more as more people enlighten themselves to allow alignment to occur in its natural change buya. 
 
QUESTIONER: Is the Cosmic Disclosure coming to the surface and has been going on underneath the surface? 
 
ROXANNE: See, you're already defining surface underneath because that's what you think it is because someone told you a story. Cosmic Disclosure, whatever that means. See, that's just subjective. Here's what I do know. Aliens are going to show up. They're going to say hello. And they're going to say hello somewhere around 2033 or 3035 is still up in the air, I suppose. That's the thing. Everything else in between in a space time continuum will lead to that moment that the human collective can accept the idea of the presence of a non-sentient being okay? Sent in non-human incarnation. That's going to happen. And obviously, everything is leading to that. More and more UFOs more and more disclosures. Don't don't define how it's going to happen underneath the world on top of the world because then you're just distracted trying to bind definitions. Don't worry about that shit. Worry about fucking you. What the fuck are you to yourself? Are you some guy fascinated with fuckin shiny candy because it's on sale and fucking Willy Wonka's factory? Or are you in the internal kingdom to discover I am instead of maintaining I am not do the fucking work master. 
 
QUESTIONER: So, object stuff or narratives to to are essentially meaningless the vibration determines the experience?
ROXANNE: Yes, but not meaning less in the idea of worthless, meaning less than the idea of identity because they're already they're full of meaning they're part of the CO creative moment. But if you're looking for meaning in your life that lies in the future of an identity then that's empty as the meaningful now to give yourself the feeling of emptiness because you're not enough. So, it's always meaning and always purpose and always happens now we're always filled. Yes. My vibration determines my reality. Can you imagine if I'm supposed to be the proper channel? How fucking boring this would fucking be obey another run of the mill goddamn channeling telling you to fucking do all this shit to make yourself better. It ain't about trying to make yourself better. It's discovering what you already are! Nobody lost their god ship because we're all creators that's our natural state! You can't dumb us down. All we can do is perceive ourselves as that because we're creators of that, that magnitude. Awesome. So, so vibration worthiness, choosing what you love in the moment, no matter what it is. You have $50 left and you got something that cost $25 should I do it? Yes, yes. If it's your passion, yes. How do you know what your passion is? Don't until you fucking choose. Don't worry, the money will come money's mag magnetic, magnetic it's attracted. But uh, you guys say it only comes this way and this way and this way, since I'm only making this much money then then if I spend this much then I won't have this much money. Okay, so to create your reality through your idea your own lack of money comes because it's manifested in the moment is created in the moment. The memory is created the moment, so the memory tells you how that's right. I had an extra hundred bucks they gave me. So, you have the money, stop. Stop fucking thinking, god damn Bashar said, I think it was like almost 37 or 38 years ago, you literally don't need to think on this planet. Let's say it again. You literally don't need to think now. Now how can he say that? Well, because he can. And it's a truth because all truths are truth. And I understand it. I don't have to think when I think I'm doing the work. I'm thinking and I'm reflecting on myself and the selves and thinking about this so I can look at it from this perspective. It's my work, right? So, I get to think, but I don't think as a standard I don't think is an identity. I don't need to figure out what's coming. I don't need to figure out how to do things. I just do. Do I fuck things up? No. I live the experience of evolution. God damn right God Damn, it's so fucking exciting. 
 
QUESTIONER: Why does it still bother me so much? My mom keeps telling me that I only like everything easy in my life or struggle or nothing.
 
ROXANNE: (1:31:03 Audio) Because because she raised you that way, your mom raised you that way you been at home raised that way. So of course, you would do that. And now that she sees that you are not what she is, then she has an object to define her happiness through you. And all you have to do is keep living the fucking image of it like my mom keeps telling you, why does it still bother me because she is criticizing you. And that woman was supposed to love you unconditionally. But she loved you through conditions. So, she's a typical fucking human fucker. She's your mom fucker. Yeah, you can say Oh, I love you, Mom, but fuck her and her belief systems. Don't fucking it. Don't interact with her and keep doing it. But if you do it, if you do, that's choice! And then when you do as a choice, then you can make a choice to transcend that by saying mom, shut the fuck up. Don't ever tell me. I want things easy anymore, stop, put me in a little box. Look, I've been in this house for whatever and then this is the way I was raised. This is what I know. And I'm working on myself. And if you don't like that, then I can't play with you. So, go take your drunk ass. Go get an argument with your fucking dad. Count your goddamn money and have coke and a smile. That's the toxicity that they provide you to image yourself now look at your emotions! Look at your victimization! It bothers me. Yes. So, except that it's you. It's not them because they're lost in their own little fucking I’m not. They're not to blame. But I'm not blaming them. I'm calling it as I see it. Fucking humans living out their fucking blind life good. If they don't want to wake up, I don't care. It's not my job! My job is to become the brightest light possible so other people can find the beauty within themselves! Not in objects! Don't please that woman! Find yourself and you did! And now you're sitting here going, Oh, it still bothers me. Well, what did I fucking teach you? What did I fucking teach you to accept that bothers me to accept that not talked about in the idea of victimization, but you just cycled yourself because you'd love to be a victim. And you're going to still bothers me. Everyone pay attention to me and give me pity. So, let's all give Lucy a pity. Yay, pity party for Lucy now get on the bandwagon of courage and accept that's my belief system. It's a goddamn and that's mine. It bothers me that she does that. So, I need her to make me feel happy and I want her to make me feel proud because she loves me as I am instead of the lazy person that I love to be. And now you have your own place and you can go be your own lazy person. Did you know that? Did you know that Lucy, you don't have to do that anymore? Because you choose your reality. Time grow up master.
 
QUESTIONER: What happens when others don't accept you? 
 
ROXANNE: Doesn't matter. You find yourself all alone. You're never all alone. Oh, no, no, no, no Master, you might be lonely because you rely on those outside dependencies to fill you. That's your own emptiness being filled by the validation of acceptance to others, but when they're not accepting you then what are you left with? Impressive human. What are you left with? Ah, you and you're all that is in your enough, but you never met you. You've been relied upon as an image of you to be accepted by others to fill yourself go back to the beginning. And listen to it again. Here's relying on that to fulfill the emptiness through the idea of lack full, empty full empty hole empty all lack I need I need I need I need empty empty fill fill fill fill fill hoarder hoarder fat fat fat food comfort food, medication alcohol, dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah, dope, dope, dope, dope, dope, dope, dope, dope. I'm not here. I'm not. Right. Okay, good. Now that we're clear on the fucking lack full self. 
If you're alone, good, because now you could fall in love with you without the distractions of the imagery. Be a goddamn master and say I'm enough. Go to the mirror and say I am enough, thou shall have no gods before me. I am an impressive human. I am and I'm going to find that self through the courage, the allowance of the now and choose yourself the undiscovered self as a point lights while I may know I am once again, or is it good to stay human. But see either one is okay. You know why? Because both of them are priceless. But how is the experience on the earth compared to the self that is true? As an Awakener…one that are asleep, just give them milk. warm milk, pillow blanket, you know? snuggle up, okay? You go to fucking work. Don't worry about being alone. Fulfill yourself with your own mind. People call me. Hey, Roxy, you were in my dream. We're all sitting around. We're talking. 
You know, think it's real. Just because you had a physical, you're all alone because you're looking for define-ment for validation. And when your own goddamn existence of that moment is self-evident. But now you can realize how much you relied on the idea of the dependencies. Good. So now you can see your own idea of the ego, and how you can now observe it and deconstruct it by choosing the now and allowing it to play out. To know that your ISNESS your existence is always here, and now. You can never be extinguished Master; you can only grow lighter.
 
QUESTIONER: I've been attracted to electricity and lightning for a while I've always wanted. It has an ability. Could this be an ability or what path? 
 
ROXANNE: You mean to be like a Thor? And we all did. I mean, if you want to be in electricity and become an electrician, but I don't know. I mean, maybe you want to maybe another self that was experienced with that? Yeah, sure. It seems to me when you get those inputted input and thoughts of something that you relate to, most of it still runs through a filter. So maybe you are like, you know Tesla, and then you knew everything about electricity and here you are in this now, that's not Tesla but you had the experience of the test of DNA within you. And that DNA self is now pushing through to this self because you're awakening to the frequency, but I would highly suggest not to define it as a wielder and a lightning thrower of that I would like you to understand the relationship with it, how it makes you feel, not what it does as an object. But it definitely is another self. 
 
QUESTIONER: When I hear you and another channel speaking sometimes, I drift off and hear water swirling around me in the ocean. 
 
ROXANNE: That is cool. That is cool. Yeah. Yeah. I think that's good guy. Are we good guys? Listen, as far as the humility goes. It is is constantly in play because sometimes you find yourself being an image. You know, sometimes I was doing stuff and I had a hang on Roxy, is this real? Or is it Memorex? And you have to be the constant village and have yourself be the discipleship of your own kingdom. And be humbled to the moment and accept that you have discovered a truth about yourself that's no longer valid and have the courage to let it go. And be okay with yourself. Okay, god damn and be okay with yourself. Because you are enough, I swear to God, okay. All right. So, I think we're good to go. I think we're gonna end it here. 
 
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QUESTIONER: My work has been shown my mastery, but my daydream is able to grab the disassociation of the mind. I'm able to grasp those deep ideas, but I need help with meditation. 
 
ROXANNE: You don't necessarily need to meditate Jamie, but I'm not gonna sit and answer that. So, do me a favor, email me. Contact me on Odyssey of Ascension calm, and I will talk to you about that. Okay. Max, I love you Kara to see us everybody. I love you all fuckin a. And remember, this is the way I am. You don't have to be this way. don't match your image to something. Find it because it is there and go through all the selves and tear them down to reveal. I love you guys. Love you all. Take care guys. Bye