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Premiered Dec 3, 2019
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All belongs to, Odyssey of Ascension channeled and taught by Roxanne Swainhart
Transcribed by Marilyn Holzmann
 
 
Hi everybody, hi, hello, greetings!
I am whatever. 
I want to give you some ideas on the personality that you behold as trustworthy. You have a situation, and that situation is relative (meaning qualified) only to you. There has been never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever…where? Never, ever, never, ever, ever, a cause. You gotta, you gotta really, you got to let that one go. You gotta let “cause” go. 
 
See, you receive what you understand, the stimuli (meaning provocations) in the now. When the now is calm, cool, collected. When your pain is managed, then everything is fine. And when it becomes simulated (meaning replicated) by probabilities (meaning chances) that take the conjecture (meaning guesswork or assumption) itself and you take it personally, whatever that is, and then you assign. Right? And you're sitting in your glory of as Rose said, “a pile of shit” as envy, jealousy, a betrayal, all of these things occur in your reality because they are personalities and you know this. Right? 
 
(1:52 audio time) We want you to see the personality. Why the fuck are you still doing it? “I have excuses. I have reasons. I have a way to create my reality.”
When you start to really, really be that, then you are going to see the persona, not in a living reflection (meaning thinking or manifestation) but creating the reflection (meaning manifestation) of experience. 
 
Your attention is here and not on the other side of the mirror (meaning manifestation or reflection)looking back going, “what the fuck did they do to me now?” “What happened to me?” “Why do you do it?” And all because of an infusion (meaning blend or mixture) of vibration. And that energy disturbed you and you've made choices against yourself. 
Why? I'm going to say this once and I really want you to pay the fuck attention.
Because you're afraid. 
But you don't want to admit it. 
Because you will have dulled (meaning dark or dreary) fear into commonality, reason and rationality, structures, safety, securities.  You fight and make excuses for your life. 
 
If you're engaged in a conversation and the next thing you know your two hours later, that would be passion. 
 
If you're engaged in a reflection (meaning manifestation) on how your highest joy is supposed to create an idea of abundance. Meanwhile, you're doing something completely different and you love what you're doing completely different but your highest excitement it is a mind projecting what to do. Well then, you're on this side of the mirror. Your focus, your attention is in the reflection that separated itself looking back at creation going…
“What the hell is wrong with you?” 
“Why aren't my things coming?”
“Where?”
Oh well because they're being reflected. 
“What's being reflected?” 
Oh…you. Your being reflected.
 
YOU are a reflection of your own creation self-creator (meaning the conception of oneself) self (meaning identity, ego, character). And, and you want to know why things are struggling? Because YOU nobody else but YOU, “I choose my reality.” 
You choose not to do what your heart says. And don't be despicable (meaning shameful) in your unworthiness that you don't know the truth of you. 
 
And then…What are you doing? 
What are you doing? 
Okay, here it is ready? 
 
(Audio 4:45) When you start choosing your fucking pain that's the belief system soothing the probabilities of more pain into mediocrity (meaning weakness or common place) pain. So, when you choose what you don't want to do.  You know what you're doing? You're negotiating with a level of pain (meaning distress or discomfort) to be received.
Fear, pain, something of that matter. 
I can't do this, but I want to do this. 
I can't do it, because I would have a very, very bad time according to my mind.
It's going to happen. There's nothing there. I need to know first before I take action in the now. I need to have my reality laid out according to the system of control that says, “Here's what is probable and here's what we need in order to move forward inside a reflection of the created self.” And you hesitate and you don't do what you want to do. 
 
 
What's going to happen? Life.
What are you afraid of? Death. 
Afraid of being made a fool of?
Afraid it’s not going to work out? 
Well your life isn't working out right now. 
You guys are fucking miserable. 
You are in your misery. Now has zero misery!  Reflection, misery! The misery again has been dulled, negotiated with, become what? Tolerable. 
You can tolerate an amount of pain. 
 
See, your pain received in the futuristic idea that is in couched in the fear world. Over there as a possibility might workout, but you never choose that idea of JOY. Because the pain, the future pain, that’s not being experienced it’s so goddamn fearful, it keeps you dormant.
 
It's like someone came along and took a fucking nail gun in your fucking feet. And now you're ahaAAA! Because you're afraid to know you are ALL THAT IS. Right? And you keep doing this over and over again. Which means you love one thing, that self. Because it's not known to you when you choose different.  
 
Giselle, we're going to use you as an example, as an example:  
“Some are telling me to go to a psych ward. It was just my obsession with Wesley and I'm trying to control him. I still want him so much. But I know my work now. It feels hard and I'm shaking like death. I want to be me.”
 
All of that is a statement of I'm afraid. Although she left Wesley, she's in Wisconsin. She did it. But the mind, now listen. Ready? The mind is an echo. You are echoing all your fucking thoughts. Right? A lot, a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot of words and then you grasp them, and you breathe them into creation.  
“I missed him so much. He's my sanctity.” 
No, he's your dependency. He's a narcissist that abuses you. But you can’t have, “I'm awesome.” Why? Please say it, cause I'm afraid. I'm afraid to know that everything that I have ever created is going to crumble. And I will know nothing but the unknowable now. And you won't believe how awesome that is. 
 
Okay, let's all look for example.
Roxy is going to go on the road in January. She's got a couple places laid out. She has no idea how she's going to get there. She has no idea how she's going to pay for the places that she's already booked but see that's a NOW. Abraham said it. We said it in the class. You know what it is? We got it. 
 
Don't control your reality out of time.
 
Because that only vibrates the lack of now and then everything that you know is coming, you create in the lack of not knowing it's ever gonna come, because you don't know how to do it. You can't.
 
You know who can? WE.  We create. “I” never create. We create, the divisional I the you as the reflection has an echo of itself. 
“I know I'm something but I'm not quite sure what it is. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. But let me try. Let me go and look it up on Google. I’ll DYI, my reality through the systematic lack of others.” Hmm. I mean, Oh, sure, you could look up stuff and how to do stuff. But that's a moment of passion that you have not assigned a meaning to, to have some kind-controlled outcome of happiness or fear. 
 
Stop. We have no idea. I now here with Roxanne. Have no idea how any of that is going to happen. Now don't tell me that isn't the most exciting thing you've ever heard. Because when Roxy is Now, and all the ones that are joining in without the particulars of the details of time are just the passion of their life, then everything starts to attract in whoa. What does Roxy do? Oh, she's a channel. 
 
(Audio time 11:15) So guess what “they” universe “we” are gonna start vibrating in the match frequency of her joy and create different kinds of scenarios so she can do one thing, channel in the constant of change, not in the dependencies of now. Like slide classes are ending. Why? Because it's a dependency now. It's turning into something of a ratcheted system of reliability. And your expansion now is our knowledgeable self that goes, hey, yo, yo, I got this shit. Let's go. Let's go live. Let's go live. Come on. 
 
It's not that you'll never have another slide class again because see that's what's so fucking awesome about the unknowable because you don't know. And every time you think about what's supposed to be how is it going to happen? What about this?  I'm committed to that and I can't do that might not work out. I gotta have everything in the room. Right? My ducks in a row. Is everything good? Before you take action…in which means what? 
 
I am this vibration (meaning a person's emotional state) relating to reality because of the stimuli I’m receiving. And I'm judging the fucking shit out of that stimuli as not potential but as a discredited idea that I have to control to maintain my chaos. A certain level of pain so I can feel connected. I know myself in unworthiness. So, who's the true narcissist here? Oh, that's right. Me. 
 
(Audio 13:23) As reality starts to become a unified with you and you start to really understand the WE of you, you may not access it in the way Roxy channels it just gets out of the way if you will…absorbs us. What you will do is vibrate at a frequency that attracts a different reality. It's not a higher it's not a lower it's not more it's not less and so NOW truth. Now truth, now truth. And if you are centered in the focus of, I am instead of I am not, that's the mirror the other side going, “AAAAah let me out!  I'm not this!” When you are that sovereign being of I AM vibration takes place. 
 
You guys can start connecting with the unknowable at a higher frequency rate. And we're talking about an amount of times, not the higher frequency as in range, but the frequency is interactions with the NOW. And what you're going to discover is, it the life that you can't and don't the place that you can't dictate it absolutely naked to the self. 
 
Another thing is Roxy is tired of being a punching bag. See the dependency is to go to Roxanne or anyone else in the class and spill your fucking guts.
“Why is this happening?” Really? “But yeah see I mean come on it's real.” Of course, it's real. But you that make it real, you that don't want to cut the cord with that self that is on the other side of the mirror that reflected that shadow self-echo self. Because you are the self that creates all of that. See, as that self the WE create the experience. Right? 
 
(Audio 17:03) It's happening anyway, but you won't believe it because you are afraid. You're scared to be God. 
You can say, “I'm God.”
You can say, “I am a God.”
You could say whatever the hell you want; is what you need to know. Is that absolute for you? Scariest thing you've ever said? When God picked out of the size of the galaxies that the Hubble (link: https://hubblesite.org/) has exposed to you, quantum physics proving 100% that this reality is an illusion. It is a projected holodeck, a hologram. All of this true staring humanity in the face. And they pay it to a God outside. 
 
(Audio 18:16) You guys know, but you don't know until you choose to know and how do you choose to know? Choose the NOW. The self that is God creating and you the fractal has been spending all of its life looking back at itself, beating it up, crying, asking, “why?” “What about? And that self is called WE. And that means boyfriends, girlfriends, situations jobs, employers, creation, road, hazards, car crashes, plain, rain, everything is WE!
 
All have it and it's all your perfect during it bringing them, bringing it, bringing, bringing in, bringing in, bringing in me. As I am and you are over here looking back at it going, “What the hell! I didn't ask for this shit.” Yes, you did. 
 
You came into a world of unknowable. And now you're knowing the unknowable. 
You want to know what the known is, through the perspective of now instead of the known to this perspective of memory, reflection, past. 
Or how about…being that now. 
How about…just saying, “I am.”  
How about…taking a chance on yourself? 
How about…shutting up with all your excuses. 
How about…don't worry about who you're going to disappoint.
 
Because all you do is disappoint people, which keeps you paralyzed, and you keep wondering how to negotiate that relationship into a conformity of a mediocrity sustained pain. 
 
(Audio 19:58) Humans get attached to moms and dads, teachers, lovers, anything that gives them worth. They are seizing for a connection. And then they make excuses, “What he does love me.”  “He loves me. I know he hits me. I know he abuses me, but he loves me. I do it. It's my fault most of the time. I just don't know why I do this to myself. Because sometimes I want to have fun in the end, but when he doesn't let me. Sometimes I say things I shouldn’t. So, it's my fault.” 
 
(Audio 20:55) See that's a reality chosen truth. Attraction occurs, WE steps in in the now and gives God what God is, instantaneously without hesitation. Your relationship with beyond polarity, the work you've encroached (meaning to enter by gradual steps) in acceptance of all things leads to a self-regulation. That regulation is going to reveal what you've always been.
 
See, it's not an image of what you’re going to become, it's the moment you are. 
And when you are NOW in your mind is thinking, come back to the now. 
And you're the now and in your mind is worried about…come back to the NOW.
Yeah, should I say this? Fuck no because you know that its diarrhea, say it come back to the now. 
 
Be in the now start to passion yourself, no matter how boring it is and unrolling the new, not much going on. Let that beautiful, unknowable thoughts start to flow in. Let creation start to talk to you. And don't chalk it up to my mind is imagining things still. It's exciting engage. So, tell me about yourself. 
 
Well, I'd say I was born on plantonia five. Let's say I'm five foot seven inches are. Arcturion coffee phenomenal, draconian meat sandwiches with the brazen carry on, to die for. No but you got to think, and you think in the mirror. When you think, you think in the reflection. See the reflection sustains what it knows. Because that's what you're validating. So what do you think? We're not going to give you what you are? Well we can't. Because we are truth. We are not denial. 
 
(Audio 23:21) Life can be so funny. You can laugh every day. That's a silly your boss is so serious, and you look at him, look at him start to laugh and go a bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla and walk the fuck out. Because that's your life. The life unmeasurable and we attract so that means you are attracting passion when you are laughing at Blah blah blah man trying to make you deformed into the circuitries of his cogwheel. Turn my wheel make me rich, turn my wheel, make me rich slaves, slave. 
 
Doesn't matter you can go to work or be a non-slavery relationship is that of course, but we're just showing you when you don't do what you like, you are becoming a fucking asshole to yourself. You're the dick because you're not worth the unknowable. 
 
So, let's talk about highest excitement. That's an image. The channels upon the earth have given you a relative scope of ascension, climbing the ladder to a certain particular point and then there's no more ladders and you all are here. Yes, you are. 
 
(Audio 25:31) When you become a self that is extraordinary in the moment…let me give you this, that's the passion (meaning it encompasses more than just that emotional feeling. It is including a direction, a drive, a commitment to a purpose or a cause. Passion is a slow fire that consistently burns inside of you verses an emotion, which is a “reaction” to an external stimulus that is temporary) of what you would of considered a past times of ascension, the work you've done as your highest excitement. Now I want your passion to be equal to and beyond your highest excitement because your highest excitement is no longer a category. Okay. Your highest excitement is the moment. So, Roxy knows she's a channel. You all know Roxy, she's a channel this is definitely her passion, but she is passionate in the now. And the attraction that she is, doesn't define her as a certainty on a timeline. What it does is allows her to continue to experience the WE of what she chooses her real to be, in her real is known in the now of the Creator as the creator. Your real has been reflection. That's why it's mediocre. That's why it's an echo. That's why it's full of pain, fear, right. So, when you are an observer of the self, and you start to look at your life and watch what you love to do although your mind never notices it can actually make an income because it's not going to work out. 
 
The markets flooded with those kinds of people. I couldn't do that but you're doing it every day. Except since you trust the reflection that you are impossible to create abundance through that route, you do it as a hobby. But you'd love it. If there was a model train builder, he can be a multimillionaire. You got a fucking kid on your planet that made goofy socks and now he's a multimillionaire. Everyone says, “Oh, he's lucky.” No. He's like, here's my joy. People said, “No, you can't do that. No one's gonna.” Okay. It'll be a little project. It'll be a little project for you to pick. Let's make a little project sock. And all of a sudden, ah orders fucking galore, hiring people hiring people more and more and more, you know, out there communicating with manufacturers starting to do that little 13-year-old kid becoming a monster in the sock world. And it can be anything. 
 
This planet has money. What the fuck you're doing? Go get some, but not through the reflection because that's contained in, what? Limitation, polarity, ups and downs, in and out, successes and failures, yeses and noes. NOW doesn't have those! NOW attracts TRUTH. 
 
Oh Roxy wants to be in a four star hotels, and do a presentation of her badass self in it. It costs some shitload of money to even put it on, then she knows it's already there because it's her passion. Now, in that comes she doesn't have to think about how it's gonna happen, when it's gonna happen, where the money is going to come from, how it's all going to play out? There are a billion possibilities running around investors, bank loans, something like how do I get the money? And then here's Roxy. Let's find out. 
 
(Audio 29:47) It's so simple as just find out being the passionate now. So your highest excitement is not a career, your highest excitement is gazing in your reality. Whatever that is.  Enjoy yourself to the fullest. Make no excuses for your appetites of love, make no excuses for your appetites of yummy food, stop beating yourself up, you fucking narcissist reflections of the self that only looks at the self of creation in a polarized way giving you ONLY you not the fucking WHOLE self, only you an emotional reflection of pain. 
 
So again, it's always been you. Nobody else. There was a girl in a corner she did this for like six years. How do you this for six years? It stopped her. Later down fetter. She got back up corner, six years. Shocked her and then she stopped. These are the worlds you live in. Now doesn't have those worlds. This is the world of reflection. You are in a world of reflection time, knowing yourself and disconnection. Watch what happens when you center yourself as the creator of this world by embracing every moment. And when that moment becomes intolerable, let it go. And just because you let it go, doesn't mean it's gone if you keep fucking ricocheting around. Giselle, “I miss him so much.”
 
(Audio 32:19) Check Oh, you got to stop. You got to accept that in the moment. But you can't become that reflection again because that drives the now into the passion OF YOUR TRUTH and if that truth is reflection of lack, where does your reality go? Oh? “What? Why is this happening to me? I thought I was following my highest...” You can't shut your fucking mouth. Because that's how you live your pain!  Don't you see that? You've got to get that pain back. Because all of a sudden, you're free in the now and you have no idea what's going to happen. And you can't live a life of absolute freedom and glory because you are only knowing yourself as the unworthy bastard chosen to be forgotten. 
 
(Audio 32:36) Right. Now, all of a sudden, life is too good. And you got to fuck it up. Because you expect people to act a certain way. Because you're dependent and when they don't, it's your fault. And if you cut the cord with them, it's their fault, not me. I'm awesome. All that's reflection. There's a world of now. And it calls nothing to the table of time. Because it doesn't sit at the table, it doesn't use reflections to dictate it's tomorrow's. It's up and bes’ the moment everything changes. If you're the constant vibration of now, trust your Tesla. Trust your Nasim and trust Einstein. Vibration creates Reality.
 
(Audio 33:42) Stop with this thing and become whole with it. You got to look what you're doing. What is Roxy doing when she is not channeling? Plays chess, watches some YouTube, sleeps, eat, drives around. Tonight, probably they'll go for a midnight drive. They love driving. Look around the Beltway here 1604 for 410 because it's just awesome to be quiet and let your minds go. Let your thoughts flow with a window down in your volume into you know a brisk evening. That's just a moment that's not to an escape. That's not to solitude, the self. That's not the ease. That's what the moment says. It's difficult, but you got to stop making excuses and get on with it. Or you're going to be left treading water instead of swimming through life having a great time. Right? 
 
(Audio 34: 55) Your highest excitement is no longer an image. It is now the passion of the moment. You must trust that the unknowable will show up. And until you let go of control, it is impossible for the unknowable to show up. Because you are the chaos that controls the known and the known is the reality you choose and the known be. 
Within reality I'm going to bring you to a new level of awareness. Within reality, there is no limits. So whenever you come upon a truth and you start to divine this truth within you embrace it, and we're talking as a fractal, and as a holistic because it occurs on both levels, doesn't it? Because there's only one right. But just right now you've experienced in the human self when you become a new known. Know that new known is not going to stay known as that forever. So, in particular, I'm talking about gender right now. 
 
See, Roxy has been feeling something else inside of her. Here on Earth, with the fairies. We have gender. Your animals have gender, and it's for an idea of reproduction as well as pleasure unless of course you're a worm and then it's a sexual or some people's wives. 
 
In the quality of humanity to unify the masculine and feminine is because that's what you validated undergoes beyond that it seems almost inconceivable to have a third gender but it's not a third gender. Humanity is making up a whole new genders gender, queer gender, this gender that and that's great, you know you guys are doing you're becoming male to female, female, the male is being whatever you're being other. You know, that's fantastic, fantastic way, because it's all birthed from the idea of separate itself. 
 
The Yin and the Yang is representation of masculine and feminine, right. 
 
So that idea has been battle on Earth. It's just, let's just tear ourselves apart and try to put ourselves back to which one is right. And, you know, you do that every day. Not just between men and women is between the vibrational self that's split, which is you, right?
 
I want to shatter your image of gender, gender goes beyond it is a way that you relate is a blending. And there's other parts that you are not known to recipient. Roxy feels like it's a strange thing. See? I'm going to have her kind of like relate to me how she feels it. So let's look at let's look at a softer field. a softer grassy field. Right just a hill right here. Now you see the yellow wheat is blowing. Right and this is herself blending and then all of a sudden, right over here, there's this thing.  What the hell is that? It's not a tree. It's not anything that belongs on this field of unity that she pictured as the unification of both selves the whole self in being either and all of a sudden or and there it is. It's like it would be like, like a black crystal that had like a mountain mountainous edges, you know, straight edge, very cut very defined with a little bit of jagged, black idea. 
 
Black idea of crystal. The hell are you doing here is coming out of the sky. It pierces through the clouds of serenity it's blocking off the sun. This conformity she found in the unification of reality is now moving. And I just say gender because it gets your attention. But this is everything my friends. You're allowed to have an earth that is your own. You've only made it to Earth of others because you didn't know. But you did the work, and you're here. But as we've said in this class, a lot of times we can't take it any farther. You have to become sovereign to the self. You have to accept that I am. 
 
See if those points of measuring yourself, take the approach of working on it, accepting it, laughing about it. Don't make it serious. Don't make it a job. Make it a relationship of I'm being the now about it. But not using the emotions of humanity or reflect itself to spite the self that knows itself is still envying bigger boobs. You get it. 
 
You got to stop beating yourself up. Stop being a fucking process. Be the now and all this stuff your relationship with changes, your changing relationships, all the beliefs that you've ever covered. 
 
When you become a moment, a moment says, “I am.” There's a distinct feeling that is a measurable and it's very unknown to you because you've been so taught not to pay attention to the feelings. That would be awesome you ever remember when you were little? Why can't we do that mom and dad? What Why? Why can't we do that? What do you mean? Well because and they start because of you to death, because it might happen this might happen, because of this, because we don't have the money, because so you, because yourself to death and then you got dull to the sense of your sensibility of the screaming demon that you are as an unknowable God. 
 
So that instantaneous moment self is now being revealed. When you spend now's in that moment. And not time there now. Someone said that the chemicals were not natural. Wow. Anyway, okay, um so this instant moment you know it and you're gonna get your stomach's gonna drop. Sometimes it might feel like you got to go to the bathroom. Because you get this overwhelming feeling of Holy shit. What the hell is that? And then your mind scrambles What is it? What is it? What is it? What is it? What is it? Stop, stop, stop. So put the brakes on. Let's go back to pain. Okay, open pain. Thank you Right, you've had that before. 
 
See, when you were a child, you had that all the time, but you didn't know you weren't allowed to have it. You didn't know there was another way you were supposed to live. And then well, you know the rest of the story because you were taught to no longer imagine, no longer create, no longer be you, you were dictated into a conformance just to be safe, and secure, and successful, in the eyes of a gloating parent, whatever that representation was, and of course, very many parents are supportive. So you get the attraction of addiction from some other input, some other stimuli reality, but either way, you are not God. And when you came here, as a child, you had no memory, but you had connection dulled with the reflection, because reflection became over here, because you start looking at your reality as a possibility of already. And might be right. So that disconnection occurred.
That reflection started becoming truth to or forgotten me. And now you are in the mirror reflecting back to reality as opposition. Yeah, but as you embrace this now you will become encumbered with a vibration oh my god everything's feel so fucking good I don't know what to do let me fuck it up, and you do ,and you do, it again and again and again and you can get used to it but you got to stay in the know and you got to realize when you're whoa why I'm ranting I'm ranting let's not rant about what's wrong. Let's not get offended I feel like this you guys are doing this to me. No one is doing anything to you. 
 
You are creating a world through acceptance, acceptance of the stimuli and you run it through a filter, and the filter says assign it here so you can feel better in your idea of pain. Because you're in too much pain, you're offended. So, you got to fix it with blame. 
 
It's so simple, so simple to see. Because you guys did the work. And if you guys aren't accepting, you're here, and you're still running around on the reflection, well, then you're up to an idiot and an abuser of the self. You don't have to be that narcissist to yourself anymore. You can do it. I know you can. 
 
If you have a passion for other than what your highest excitement is, please be the passion of moment and let it unfold. So if you are thinking your highest excitement is something you haven't done, or you make excuses why you can't, then you're bullshitting yourself because that highest excitement is the most valuable idea that you can attain something of certain comfort and financial needs to be to be gotten. And that makes you high. So now you're awesome. But you don't need to be high in the stimuli that lies and time. If you observe yourself and watch what you do on a daily basis, that just turns you the fuck on. And when you take a break, and you're like, okay, well what about this? Then you can see that self. Right? That's what you're gonna notice, says, “Well, I was just doing before I started getting a train wreck? Can I get in tune with myself? Can I do that here? Oh yeah, there's only me fuck it. Okay, let's do that. So just a minute ago I was having a good fucking time and all of a sudden a thought came and I paid attention to it. I paid attention to it and it told me this story and I said, oh you're right now I feel shitty.”
 
(Audio 48:18) Yeah, it's normal. It's normal to be shitty New Yorkers, every New Yorkers God given right to be miserable. Well but, but, then you don't have to that's not you as a holistic (meaning as whole, complete, universal) that you as a reflection (meaning manifestation, thoughts). So, you are must be looking, you are looking in the now at yourself. But not as the observer that we did in processes that guy's gone. Now you are in the moment going wait a minute. “What do I love doing? Look like love peeling potatoes I mean I'm having a good time my hands dirty my mind's clean I’m peeling potatoes.” Fuck me I need a potato pillar and someone's gonna come knocking on your door. You're gonna read an ad “potato peeler needed” and you're going to go and you're going to go and peel potatoes because you love it. I know there's something better for me.”
 
See nor you, nor your children, nor your wife or husband would ever doubt your passion, because attraction doesn't bring in doubt, that's you!
 
(Audio 49: 53) When you were in love with you, do I need to remind you of the fucking law again? Well will you not attract that of equal? Yes, you will. But you got to work out the kinks. You got to work it out by saying oh, here's another fucking thing. Cool. Bring it in and keep going don't sit there and go okay. But when you engage in that all okay instruct to be the now is about that what do you think is going to happen? So, you're not losing ground, you're not gaining ground. See, that's a mindful thing of humanities comparisons. What you are doing is being Now, either your passion and a lack of passion and whole. We're in a separated world. So, we're going to use those distinctions. And as time moves on, you're going to see the difference in you. But you need to be in the now. Take a chance and stop gutting yourself. 
 
For the we have like to feed on ya. What do they do? Clean the bones and then move the fuck on. When you have no lack to offer, they're gonna go away. I promise you that. So, if you're being passionate, you're going to lose a shitload of people. And you're going to gain a shitload of people. Because they're everywhere. There's an equal because we are here. You will never be without your reflection.
 
Questions anyone? 
Brandon: You said when you think, you thinking the mirror? 
Channel: What? 
Brandon: When you think you think in the mirror? 
Channel: Yes. When you think you are a reflection you are in the reflect itself, the echo itself. Do you remember yesterday's classes? 
Brandon: Yes. 
Chanel: Okay. So, you understand the self in the reflected self. The ego the separated self is the one that thinks about its reality. So, you can think that you're going to go out and get up and go to work tomorrow. But if you are true to yourself, and the moment calls for don't go to work, and why would you ever go to work? Because you're going to think about why you have to. Why you can't stay at home?  Why you can't go and do this? And that creates reality. Both realities are created, there is truly no reflected self. That is the illusion of a created truth. That gives you the experience of reflect itself called separation, but you are still creating all of it from the whole of you. And you are spending time in the reflection? Wondering how to get back to the hole, when all you got to do is be in the NOW. Make sense?
 
Brandon: Yeah, thank you. 
 
So, in the realities of attraction, you must understand that the unknowable is present already. In every time you slant it to what the conformities of your past self, the one that lies in the reflection the reflected itself, then you know, the equal of that will remain. In other words, the way you feel about it. Don't be awesomely shocked because you have the ability to make yourself feel so fucking good, without any effort because that's shock value you add into it is a contorted reality possibility of a human nature because you don't deserve the awesomeness of you.  You just gotta keep going in the NOW. 
 
Alright, that's all we got. 
 
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Transcribed by Marilyn Holzmann

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All belongs to, Odyssey of Ascension channeled and taught by Roxanne Swainhart
Transcribed by Marilyn Holzmann

​I bet you're wondering sometimes contemplate as a reflection. Now this is not an ordinary thought this is a thought about yourself that occurs naturally through life. Let's call it this phrase, let's understand each other as a unified experience from memory. And all of you have said this. Why did I think of that? Something to that context. Where did that thought come from? So I want to dive into a realm of thought production. If we can do that tonight. It is day time, yes. If we can do that together, so thought production (meaning bring forth), okay. So you understand the thought behind the thought that's the Creator. And to conceptualize that with the fractal mind is relevant. It’s irrelevant in exploration, but the finite will not be achieved because there is no achievement in knowing the Creator, the creator is constant, right? So, but you can slow things down and start to pinpoint certain accuracies for your mind to remember certain ideas about the knowing of you all ready. 


(1:24 Audio) Okay, so let’s, let's talk about the idea of thought production. Exciting. One of my favorite classes. Yes, okay. Here we go. So, you produce thought now, your whole self is a potential machine, constantly vibrating, constantly attracting vibratory tacticians, as all of you are attracted natural vibration. And we're not going to talk about a different density vibration or a realm idea. We’re going to understand in that in your mind a physical idea of movement like this, let's just call this vibration and keep it within the grasp of your palatable mind. The accepted human constructs what may be occurring as an easy idea, right? Okay, so we don't want to make things difficult that would be mishmash. So, let's look at vibration. Vibration is a constant radio signal, right? That is bringing in attracting matching which you get back, attracting constant match. Now, you can replace the word match (meaning a person or thing that resembles or corresponds to another) with a more definable and more accountable human term called truth. Truth always seems to bring up responsibility and accountability. I like match because it doesn't give any context to the wandering human mind of certain definitions cause and effect and all that hoopla. You distract yourself with. So, let's look at your constant vibratory machine the whole of you is always vibrating right? And so, therefore, it is always attracting. What is it attracting?  Attracting reality potential further. 


(3:20 Audio) So, this is thought production, because we understand yourselves is not an object because the object is literally a thought so, we have to go to what it is in and of itself right. You must go back to what it is remember your markets earliest. What is it in and of itself thought is and thought is a car thought is a computer screen thought is a lover thought is sandwich vibration thought okay. So, in a certain frequency range you have through your own evolution, the human concept itself, we're talking to the collective of humanity. The incarnation has conceptualized thought as this in here. You can think about things now not all species. Now listen close don't think they are the constant of the fleeting thought perceive without objects to be broken down into images called a experience in your mind thought. Many species do not have a thinking mind, if you will. There is no reason for it. Because it's an individual experience that does require an idea of thought or a certain experience. You take thought out of your experience, you're going to have a completely different human experience. Nonetheless, though, it is an experience unique unto itself. So, it is not a requirement to have thought in any kind of idea as a conceptual what you guys human consider thought. Now the thinking mind is a vibratory intention, you have developed the skill to think, now the action of to think, must have, again, a foundation to have the ability to think. And the first thing we all know marks really is in and of itself thinking must be birthed from. What is the internet itself? Thought.


(5:33 Audio) All right, so now we have a constant in place, right? We're starting to get somewhere. So this vibratory machine you that attracts potential vibration or thought in the matching of that is truth, right? So that's where we're at. So, this thought is pondered by the human mind as an object, when it is pondering itself as why did I think of that?Then it is objectifying its own creation as outside of itself. Right? You're looking at it as something that you create it, but not as an extension of you more so as an object to define in a polarized version of yourself. Otherwise, why would you be questioning your own thoughts? Because you can. Right? That's how you objectify them. So you can question why do you do it because you're polarized as a certain portion of yourself, and this is not a fault. This is a unique experience, until you realize that your own thoughts are extensions in the waking up process. So of course, regret comes into place and wonderment comes into place. But if you are mastered then the idea of allowance and you accept your own reality as an expansion at this moment instead of a predicated cause and effect. Blame assignment. And what's going on to define, you don't need to do that. What you want to do is be aware and have an understanding of how things work within the constant of you. Now, remember, you have two portions of you, you have the self that looks at reality as a perspective of separated and the same self is looking at reality as its whole self. You have never been truly separated. You're not here, then over here, what you are, is throwing a belief system in front of you that says, I am fractionalized against my own interpretation of reality, based on the thinking mind defining that personality on a polarized scale, because that's all I knew when I got here because when you got here, you started looking through belief systems immediately, right? That belief systems have I'm not a creator Creating belief systems of identity blah, blah, blah, you've heard the story, you've guys have listened to the classes very good. I think I need a little tea, maybe even some water but not yet. 


(8:10 Audio) So, we're going to get a nice solid foundation of awareness here right? A breathing, working awareness that takes on a life in itself. So you can be aware of the processes that go on in a vibratory state, how things work, because they do work in processing time. Of course, you have to have the element time to know how things work, because you have to reflect on it right? So since time is built in booyahh one less thing we have to do, right, okay. So since you're very conceptualized and well mannered in time, and you understand reflection, because you have have a memory, then you can understand how thought processes. Okay, we'll do that together. I'm excited. I think you want to. Okay. So here's what you want to look at. Thought in and of itself. Again, basic production, constant filled, consciousness always existence. It doesn't come from anywhere. It is always what you do is bend it, with the attraction and it potentialize itself through interpretation, interpretation. There was a great channel on your planet and I believe in your current is still channeling Darryl Anka, and he allowed a wonderful concept to come through that the Essasanni have evolved with it. And it was the three mind concept. 


(9:58 Audio) CONCEIVING MIND: You have a conceiving mind that your whole self. RECEIVING MIND: You have receiving mind that your physical brain. PERCEIVING MIND:  and then you have a perceiving mind and that's the filters, the personality. Hmm. Now, you always are a perceiver which is the unified mind, right that's the intelligent mind and with the intelligent mind you have intelligent access, therefore you have intelligent expression, not as opposed to dumb expression, the intelligence of creation, allowing you to express itself which is you and thought all symbiotic. Know what right okay? So, so this idea of your perceiving mind is bringing into its awareness by the natural process of you. The receiving mind right, the conceptualized mind, the mind that says, “this thought that's coming in from the conceiver” Which is the creator, right? You track attracting and then bending and then offering it to you, and you're like, oh, Right, and here comes a thought now it runs through a process of filters. That is equal in vibration. To back to what we get a little sticky about two terms here back to match. matching your truth or your truth. So anyways, it's your truth that's what is your be able to see okay. So you must realize when a vibration comes through, you can only see what you can see not what it is in its fullness because it is a vibrational truth. Okay. You got to be able to know that. So let's say your walking going around in your reality, and your vibrational truth is there's only humans. So therefore you only see humans. And once you understand your relationship with yourself, and you know, there's not just humans, then you get different experiences, right? Let's call them animals. And then now, you know, there's more than just humans and animals. And all of a sudden you get experiences of vibrational matches called forms or life called insects. Okay, so now you're starting to see what vibration offers to you. Until you can conceptualize something as a truth (meaning accurately conforming to a belief or expectation) you cannot perceive it, impossible because it doesn't match your truth. It doesn't match your truth. Right? So you can't see. But as you understand yourself and evolution, through the permissions of societal norms, you get more experiences, right? Some people don't know, they never will know on this planet in the current, what a smart phone is they cannot conceptualize it. Why? Because the introduction of technology has never occurred. Therefore, if you were to show them what you were looking at, they can't see it, they would see an empty hand. Because the thought doesn't match through the perception mind, in equation of vibration that the mind can translate into a thinking mind process called memory to match its understanding of that vibration. The perceiving mind. See this wonderful mind appear has many, many functions. But it doesn't make you and it doesn't lead you as humanity is always tolerating you to the extent of your smartness or your mindedness and judging you according to your brain of dumbness. Including parents are fucking bastards. 


(14:02 Audio) Anyways, so these ideas are conceptualized to perceiving minds which is the experience of you. This is why there was no sight for weeks upon end of ships in different idea of countries, they could not conceptualize a ship in the older days in the 15th and the 14th in the 1300s many civilizations were still looking out at a blank horizon. Meanwhile, their ships there, but they did see the humans getting off the little bees, but they can't see where they come from. So what did they look like everybody God's walking on water, you get it, you must understand you are a match. This is where thought comes from your reflection of potential to the vibrational match that you are current, and you get what the mind does. What does it do? It gives you thought potential, it matches you to your reality. You're not separate from the whole, you just can't get everything the whole is getting, but you're getting a lot. But as you only validate the truth of what you know is historical, then you only validate the experience of your life therefore. You want new stuff? Let go. Let go. Be open an open mind. You've all heard it. 


(15:38 Audio) But see open minds are great ideas but see open minds in the human context still have a dealings. Right? Don't you guys always have a dealings on what's coming in to perceive and validate and contain and judge and wonder about in production it and seeing all these things and you're poking your prod in to the is irrelevant. Or relevant and then you throw it out if it's not, and you have no idea what can I can give you know, zero because you're thinking mind is a process and that's what you have to be aware of. And that hurts 99% of the time, you got to swallow your fucking pride to see that you are not that god damn smart. But you manage yourself and you're smart. You manage yourself in processes of thinking, you manage yourself, and that becomes a constant if you're aware. So you must understand thought production. Is your job as a human as an incarnation as a whole. A job that's built in that takes zero effort, because what are you? Vibration. What is vibration? Attract what you put out is what you get back. 


(16:55 Audio) What you put out is what you get back. You are constantly vibrating constantly getting potentials. You're looking at these potentials trying to manage them through a thinking process!. The thinking processes the reactionary self using the references of its own memory, that which in and of itself is a vibrational match as well! So that's why you can only get some memories and not get other memories of different things that would be because your vibration matches you. So this memory that will give you a solution isn't going to be given why because you're being a dick about whatever this is. So you get the dick vibrational thought processes. Okay. What do you do? Nothing! Relax, breathe, and be be the openness and be the constant idea. Now you know the idea of expression, and that's getting into the nitty gritty of creating, but they also want to see what it is in and of itself, the process of you. And why these things are here is not a question of why putting it out to the universe as some kind of accountability or responsibility or blame with the why is because it's a potential that was attractive because you are the truth of yourself in the now. Not in time. 


(18:30 Audio) Okay, so now you starting to see that things are there for you. But you will must be irrelevant, irrelevant relationship in the now about this, what's coming? What's coming is potential rejection of anything let's look at this. This is gonna get sticky we'll smooth it out because we're masters, right? Okay. So, when something comes into your reality and it is not preferred, it is still nonetheless a match. This is now potential for you to realize relationships. If the relationship in and of itself constitutes a vibrational lack no longer choose to relationship without reality. It whatever that reality is. It could be like Roxy has a relationship with a game of chess, a struggling game. Hmm. But she still continues it when she knows you can just let it go. Doesn't harm her doesn't help her. It's experiential. And she realizes that now. But there are portions of that, that she is no longer wanting to engage in that because it gives certain consistent vibratory relationships that would be polarized. In other words, when she gets her ass kicked, she gets pissed off, because she doesn't think the way she's supposed to. But when she thinks that's when she fails, and she realizes that because she's in a production state, she's vibratory vibrating through the idea of an image noticeability perfect. That's it. And acceptance. next idea, as you've all been known, and then execution, what do I do about it? Well, if it's no longer your preference, you must to what you do? Do what you do doesn't mean the preference is permanent. Doesn't mean the preference is permanent. It means in the now do not act upon this idea. Walk away, whatever it is. permanency is no, no, you can keep things permanent. But if you notice the permanency is never permanent. It's a vibrational constant of change. You can perceive permanency with the element of what? Time. Okay, very good. Very good. So, you're starting to see, right? We're starting to get it. So when you're sitting there on your couch, doing your crocheting, enjoying your evening, and these thoughts come in. It's not because you have an evil mind if they're negative, or a hopeful mind if they're positive. That's you judging. Assessing Your own individual potentials doesn't mean you have to do it. See if there's a big thing on the planet, that when you get certain thoughts, you must act upon them to make things right or wrong. Sometimes you want to make things wrong because you're pissed. And you know it's wrong, but you do it because you want revenge. You want to make things right because you're apologetic and you feel guilty. So you want to do that action. See, those word thoughts lead you into the potential vibration of expression. Therefore, your reality stays the same and you're guilty and then you're regretful, and then you're sorry, and then you're angry, and you live a wonderful human life. Yay. Okay. So that's how that works. See, when you realize the vibrational matches in you, and that is something that you know, is no longer valid when your reality that's when, of course, you know, the, the idea of what you've been taught the process is, is to accept that about you, no matter how much it hurts, and then act upon it not in the same manner as your history history solutions to a negative situation, you allow it and say thank you, bye bye. You don't engage in it. You don't tease it, you don't feed it! Don't feed that fucking hungry lion. Right? Lions dead, let it die. Dead. You always try to regenerate it by getting back at people, making yourself justified. validating your situation through others. You never need to validate your own existence, my friends, but those are the vibrational thoughts attracted and the actions in place and then the whole cycle is just going and going and going. And the cycle is how creation works. What you put out is what you get back. The vibratory matches and the potentials and you act upon those potentials as expression and life goes on. Doesn't mean anything doesn't hurt anyone doesn't do this doesn't do that. You know what it does? It gives you life. It gives you your experiential awareness forever. Awarenesses built in in law one of course that's existence, right? Okay, very good. 


(24:09 Audio) So now let's look at thought as a memory equation. We're gonna break this down a little bit what time we got. Okay, plenty. Okay. So the first part I just got done with I just let it be a ponder, let it be, understand be observant, observant, observant, observant, not reactionary, not responsive. Now, whatever your truth is, okay, so let's look at an idea. Let's all together. Okay, now the class participation ideal vegan or not, I don't give a shit. You have the experience. Let's all taste a hamburger. The reason why I say this is Roxy has a hamburger in her mind that she's already eaten by not in the now that she said she's tired but she already has eaten the hamburger she's gonna eat in about an hour or so. I can taste it right because it's within the realm of the now and I’m part of Roxy right now so I can feel a memory thought matched on taste, which is a memory. Okay, but what does that memory do? Makes your mouth water unless you're an advocate for saving animals for some reason they never die. I don't understand that. That's your reality. So, so this, this hamburger we're all eating right? You can taste it makes your mouth water because it is where? Now, right? So the hamburgers real its your relationship with a hamburger. hamburger through thought, since Roxy's not eating the hamburger her experience, is memory still makes her hungry, she could still taste it, she could still experience it. But the physical now, which is a relationship to reality, says “I’m not eating.” So therefore the experience becomes reflected as this interpretation of thought. Okay. See that? See, when people tell you about their experience, you use all of your reference to equate it. Right? Some of you are like in more and more of you will become absolutely bored. When people start to tell you how awesome something is, watch this TV show, go here, do that all that stuff. And you know, that's not the quality of life you want to rely on anymore because before you relied to communicate commune. And when that communion, you wanted to equate something. So you would listen. And you would try to imagine how that experience was. So you can have a communion with this person have an idea. Now it is a vibrational match which it is. But now it becomes a relationship of thought through the perceived mind, and then how you act upon it. And a lot of you just don't want to do do it. It's like, Oh, you got to go see this movie, you go see the movie, that sucks. Why? And you knew it sucked? Why does it suck? Because it's not your match. It's not your relationship of truth. And that's the mystery of this evolution. What you used to could, but you'd have no preference anymore. You don't want to do the same things that you enacted as a socialite, a human idea. Now, this is the processes of experiential memory brought into the now through filters. So to give you a an equation relatable experience.


(28:02 Audio) Now, if we internalize this experience, that means we can remember and taste literally a shot. You know, when do you want to take a shot of? Peppermint Schnapps, right? Take a shot and you can remember that taste, right? You can remember going down you can remember the heat you can remember the interaction with the alcohol and the body. Remember how it felt to you see, those are experiences. Right? And if you are an actor of that experience, which is now listen, this is gonna get sticky. And after that experience in the physical then you have a more intimate relationship and it's easier easier to relate to as a truth. So yeah, oh yeah, I know what that tastes like. You know, I know what that feels like. Whenever, if it's an intimate that don't worry about what people are saying you leave the people out of bed for not let's go internalize right? Now, let's say you never had a sip of alcohol. Does that make it any more or any less and accessible to you? Well, the truth answer's no. The perceived answer is, well, that's your perception, isn't it? See, this is all relationship to thought potential. And how you relate to it through the perceiving mind. The receiving mind is giving you everything. It's giving you everything that's your vibrational match. It does not not give you what you can potentialize it's how the perceiving mind sees it. See, there is no filters between the conceiver the whole self and the physical world, physical brain. The physical brain is a is a is the best goddamn antenna ever. It is bringing in every vibratory idea that's available in the here and now. Everything, everything every ounce of knowledge, the perceiving mind is the separation. But the perceiving mind knows it not as the whole. So it must release its perceptions in allowance in validating its own truth to accord itself with its own natural and therefore you get more potentials more thoughts and more realistic realities that are not occurring in your physical okay. That's why it's easy to taste the hamburgers you eat a lot. Some pomp-press which is french fries, I like called ___ because you know, I'm junkies. Bigger or to have an old Canada, protein cheese, brown gravy. Right? You can taste it. 


(31:13 Audio) But see, the perceiving mind needs a physical idea, an object of extension of itself that creates as a hamburger objectified hamburger that I'm eating or french fries that I'm eating, right? To have that realistic experience with the perceiving mind now this is where thought is, you know where thought comes from now. It's the machine its creation but what thought is is the perceiving mind and this is why we do all the work but your work mainly has been getting you to realize your image, your fractal self the perceiving mind as an identity. But now that the identity is losing its ground by you being you, the identity can no longer prefer itself as the dominant and it just dissipates because you're not giving it, what?  Attention.  You're not energy follows awareness, you're not feeding the hungry lion therefore, you're being more natural to you now you're starting to see your relationship with thought in and of itself as an evolutionist. So this evolutionary self is realizing that thought is a perception relationship through the proceeding moment. Therefore, that perceiving mind gives the experience to you. The perceiving mind is a million minds, a million minds. It's so many different ways to be. It's never going to be honed, never going to be finite, never going to be finished, never going to be processed to a standard. It is going to be an absolute perfection every moment.

​I would like to talk to you about the particulars of vibration, that breed a certainty.  Certainty about an awareness, about your reality, creation, manifestation, things of that nature. You guys are aware of vibration, you're aware of a certain law that gives you let's say an attraction ability, to understand how realities are created. You're surfacing yourself on this new dynamic interaction with creation. Now, there's two ways to understand creation from where you are very unique place in reality. And this is most certainly unique unto the ones that are choosing this subjective point of view. And let me give you that point of view. 
 
You are limited and evolving birthing a new species, a new awareness, a god remembering itself. And, you also have the ability to just simply remember it all instantaneous moment. However, that does take a certain dynamic that is not law in the idea of humanity, but it is a truth law and those truth laws, I see seem to supersede the ego every time. What do I mean by that? Let me explain. 
 
Since you guys are privy (in the know) to death in the physical reality due to age, or some kind of physical trauma, that would give you the experience of the body giving up. But of course, the body isn't giving up. It's just the entire amount of something that outweighs another something that would result as a death. Okay? So stick with me on this so you can start to understand how you can create, yet you are creating, right? And we'll get into the more relationship of vibration so you can understand aaa, A passion about vibration. Okay, so I'm going to give you some ideas. 
 
Marilyn’s notes: Now the origin, the birthing of the word DEATH is actually meaning TO GIVE. Through religion etc.it has taken on different meanings to support the idea of polarity. However, the definition of the word death is GIVE. We give into continually new perspectives to explore through our imagination which shows up as our reality. This changes the program which is our language. When we understand that death means to give, it dissolves the panic, the fear of there being an ending, so that translates into not being eternal vibrational beings. Hallelujah! Fear has to justify itself, excuse itself with taking on reasons of the journey to death as death being pushed but it is not what occurs. 
 
What you put out is what you get back. You understand that and it's a vibrational true. So you guys have spent an enormous amount of time dissecting your own kingdom, ripping it apart, flailing yourself like a stuck pig ready to be feasted on at a Hawaiian luau and figuring out what is making you tick. Booyahh.
 
Marilyn’s notes: Vibration is the level of degree of thoughts that reflect someone’s perception. Such as Plants have a higher vibration than a mineral such as a rock. It is not greater; it is just perceiving itself in a different reflection of the WHOLE. Perception is how we grasp ideas in the mind. We grasp through the feelings, the senses, not physical senses image with image, but non-physical first (all imagination). True comes from the word faithful, and faithful is rooted in the word perception. This transmission makes complete beautiful explanation of how we get what we put out! Origin of the word Universe, Universe is the existence of ALL. In order for it to exist, it must be perceivable. Boom! We each individually, as God consciousness, God awareness, that can perceive all, because all already is!! Hallelujah!!!! We choose what to perceive, which then is true and truth is our individual vibration.
 
Yeah, good…now! To come up against the vibrational fear of death is an institution in the minds of a psyche, human psyche, which you knew as a death occurred when you first coveted (means to desire it) it. It may have been a one year old or 10-year-old, but somewhere you guys value death as a reality. And that head starts the death hormone and the entire body starts to put itself on a timer and tick tick tick away. But along the idea of the dynamic, according to the relationship with the self, the idea of the death is moved in simple different ideas of probabilities, right? That's all there is many exit points some of the channels have talked about, it doesn't matter, but what is certain is death from one perspective! aaAAh, now there lies the conundrum (meaning the challenge). 
 
You are two perspectives.
 
You are the battle of the new, realized, accepted, evolved, focused on, emaciated. (laughter) And the other forting (meaning as for protection or defense) self of identity who’s flailing looking for something to hold on to, to grasp to, to give you an image, to make you mad, too make you assign, to make you identified into recognition takes place and that idea is the certainty of death. Now that death is a belief system, a very strong one. And through that you run out of time maybe you don't understand how you can relate to vibrational reality and create a different reality for yourself that has no involvement of death. Why would you want to do that? What's wrong with death? Nothing. It's the same as a nice ice cream, roller coaster ride, an evening fishing with a family member. It's gorgeous. Death is outstanding experience. 
 
However. what does that mean? Well, there's no new perspective. There's no evolution of something. What are we talking about? We're talking about the God remembered this little infant. Bottom of the cavern, I think the speaker spoke today in this big gorge with Jagat wet walls standing, towering above the infant in rags with no identity, no food, no source, no is this just existence a point of complete vanilla vulnerability and nakedness? Standing to bring out this newness, that newness, that body, that thing you see down there that child is in existence, it is an invincible, it is forever. Hmmm. Yes, of course. 
 
That's where you place your focus. This newness that doesn't grasp the ideas of next week's paycheck, or what am I going to do with about a career, or what are they thinking about me, or how am I going to manage this life? Time all of that shit done. Puff the Magic Dragon is your too loving now, right? So, so, you have this conundrum about this new self being burst to realize, a manifestation. A manifestation within your grasp now that manifestation in and of itself is to manifest. 
 
So that's what you're manifesting, the ability to manifest, create, vibrationally attract with a mind of attraction that is aware of its true, that is aware of its value, that is aware of its preference and doesn't have a corms about what the reality is because it has no site. Zero site of polarity. True dat, True that.
 
So, here beginneth the lesson aaah. Within each kingdom is a dynamic vibration. You're not discounting these next words, you must accept this within yourself as a potential. Without justification of it, that it is truly there. Without seeking of it to know it's there. 
 
The vulnerability about this next statement must be accept with the purest of heart with zero of intention, without the absolute allowance of realization to occur in natural realization. That you are a creator. That you can manifest and we're going to show you how.
 
Manifestation takes place at a dynamic vibration of a knowing that occurs in the sequential 10 years’ time of the now, at the exact edge of unknown and known. And as soon as the known is occurred, it is already. Which means you have non-intentionally created. Your awareness, however, is in time so, you are quote “the results of your natural attraction” right?
 
That natural attraction is law. Your perception of your natural attraction is polarity. When there is no perception of your natural attraction, natural attraction is not seen as that, it is known in the moment. See the difference? So your experience you're going through life. I think it was the Darrell Anka conduit, that channeled an Essanni that said, “you are in the passenger seat along for a ride” yes. And you are also driving. And to realize yourself as a driver you must realize yourself as a passenger. That is the truth of you. You have to give up on driving, managing, trying, efforting, controlling. Everything that the ego prides itself of, prouds itself around, seeks itself in the manifestations of others worthiness. Hmmm. Do you notice that? I think you did. 
 
Marilyn’s notes: Ego. This word has the origin in the word, I. I is the first personality, the name in place of. It is taking the place of. This makes sense that each Ego is looking to take the place of, to play out an idea through a self-image, a label, a name. The self-image is not all that is, it is not the totality of who we each are for it is just a path to explore, to mimic and idea. Going to check more YouTube on Odyssey regarding Ego.
 
Okay. So when you let go what you have you realize the only way you can be in the passenger seat. Now reference now, right now nothing before now, right now pay attention right now! Now you realize this because you are in time. You are the result of the now, your experience is coming in, and is also known as it's depleted through filters of time and awareness, value, human. No reason to go into all the dynamics, you get it. 
 
So to catch up with the self must be an acceptance of the Creator…imperatives without doubt without valuing any proof, without justifying your means of looking around. This pen doesn't exist, it didn't come from a store. Tammy didn't send it to Roxy. Right? Roxy manifested in the moment, through the vibrational co-creation between her and Tammy. Period. 
 
The physical pain is created right now. Now, now, now, now, now, now! It's not sitting there in time. Everything is now. So since that's occurring, well then you can be aware of it. Now the awareness is where the ego must cease to bring itself into and that is not brought by you. Because you are the humble to the self of realization without trying to be smart, trying to be I'm going to figure this out, trying to be anything that the human dynamic wants it to be; so may be accepted, known, pleased, successful, fail anything human anything, anything, anything. 
 
This manifestation occurring in the moment or occurring Ah, in the moment, is the dynamic isness of now, and you are present there you have to be. It became, it becomes rather than, let's say a very, very noteworthy observation point of existence. Time is slow though, so things don't seem to change much. 
 
How about you guys go a walk around your neighborhood, one block every day for a week, you'll see change, you will. That change is not because of cause and effect. It changed because of reality relationship. Okay, you relating to your reality is constant change. See, you've always looked at life as a result. It's time what life's going to bring me. Life isn't bringing you anything life has been created by you for you. But you value yourself as separate in time catching up to the self that is whole trying to get there, all this stuff, right? 
 
So you have this new self that is birthing its creation experience once again, now follow me. You're a creator, at some certain point of now all knowing, but knowing nothing but the now forever. Right? What is that called everyone? Evolution, right. But it's not really evolution, unless you measure what it truly is, is revelation. Right? You're always constantly revealing you to yourself. So worse to singularity and singularity expressing source symbiotic all that is co creation yadi yadi you got it. Okay. 
 
So this self that is now birthing a homo Dominicus realizing it is a God in the idea of an incarnation and it doesn't matter if it's a human. This is just happens to be the one is,homo-dominicus (14minutes:27 seconds time of audio, which as I look at Germany time it is 14:27..wtf) okay ideas, but you can do in another idea but that dynamics, different, different, different, so don't make it special because it's human. Okay. 
 
During this incarnation, my heart jokes as this value of nakedness now, of not knowing, of humility, of realization that you are a creator. And everything that is about you is going to be bequeathed (meaning given) upon you with zero effort, zero begging, zero works, zero effort, zero outcomes, zero measure nothing. It's natural.
 
The key here is to receive something. At one time you were evolutionary to God which is an idea of revolutionary to the self. Always realizing your creative self. What we say to the gods because the God of creation, which is you within, right? But you're waking up to yourself constantly revealing yourself. Now that's, this you, but this you incarnated is an idea of a fractal they didn't know it was this you. Hmm.  See this whole you God right creator creation is an all knowing of all that is right, through all of it selves, all co creation or singularities everybody there all are one, one are all.
 
And now that you're this idea of singularity, you have a whole bunch of concepts about this self, this self, this self, and this self in different incarnations and you keep focusing around. But what you need to do, is realize that you're this point of awareness now, and that gives you a connectivity that is unmatched and unparallel and all human dynamics. From there, you can do whatever the hell you want, but you got to know it first, to understand the strength of what you yield and wield of the power of a creator. ut it happens in infancy birthing this devindictus can't be a sapiens one ounce of ego inside of _____isn't already devinicus has not realized. ____has is in and of itself, a god revealing itself from a whole new perspective remembering your God, not the death God. The death God poof Oh, it's me. Oh, oh what a ride? Hey, that was you that was you? That was so cool dude, I can't believe, and I fucking hated you look at you now, I love you all that's death God, death creator. The human dynamic ending the game to a possibility of a hostile experience. Whether it is a natural death, but it's vibrating out of life into life, so it would be considered quite hostile. 
 
Why? Why do I say that? Well because death doesn't occur in the same way except for humans is so fucking unique. There's different experiences of death. You’re going through the death process is in many incarnations, but it is an experience of life. It is not the amount of unknown that you guys suffer and the relative reality that realization is not suffering but that is the dynamic of appearance to the collective. 
 
A death to know the mystery of life to really know there's an angry God, or judgmental God, or a Christ conscience to really know if all of this is bullshit real what is the truth? That's a scary fucking moment for anybody and everybody, no matter how much they give in a once they give in, once they give in, once the give up, then there is no fear, it's magical. Because they're realized, they're realized, magnificent to experience a death in this dynamic. However, each and every one of you have experienced a lot and there is a known certainty, once a known certainty is known, it is no longer vibrationally attracted. 
 
What is attracted? A different reality. What had happened to all of you? You woke up. Woke up to the realization that I am a singular point of existence. I truly know that within my kingdom within myself of relationship. My egoic mind, my structure mind, my brrrr mind, doesn't matter, has issues with that. A person that once said, Roxy, I take great umbrage (meaning resentment) with that big word (giggles) umbrage. Just look it up--word of the Day. Anyway, so that ego has a problem with truth that is beyond the scope of value. proven, right? That's why it's easy to die. That's why it's easy to do that. That's why it's easy for everyone to value the idea of polarity because it is so simple to know, this journey you've woken to is excruciating because you're birthing a new fucking species without incarnating it, get it?
 
You're literally incarnating it as vibration, sure, but you aren't. You're doing the birthing of it through what? Worthiness. Absolutely falling in love with you. Truly accepting yourself as your own leader, your own truth, and valuing that, and expressing it, and never wavering from it, and never justifying yourself, and never giving an ounce of yourself. When you know that everyone does Oh, you're a fucking idiot and you're like, yes. But that's who I am, loving you. Right? Now that's excruciating. But that is the forged in the fire of birthing a divinicus. Because a divinicus (meaning your divine being, your divine existence) is a God that is going to be an incarnating creating relationship to reality, as other gods are, but the difference is, is your awareness. That's simple. 
 
Marilyn’s notes: Worthiness. Worthy or worthiness originates from the word BECOMING. Boom!!! We are always becoming! We are birthing through becoming! 
 
 
We all talked about this, but now you're knowing it. So vibration is where you're going to start in manifestation. Manifestation is many different things. Manifestation of course, is physicality, objects, things come to you. Things come to you and whatever timing the natural timing assess. But you are no longer under the guise of that. But you can't bring the ego self to the controlling factor of when and how and why and why nots and your own ego of pressure, of expectation. Because that only brings it to the vibrational match of that attractive world, do you guys know this.
 
So what work do you do? What can you literally do to understand how to start manifesting?  
 
Realization. Boring, fucking boring realization. It is because you don't do any work. But why you might you do is realize your vibration. Realize your truth about yourself. You really got to stop in one regard, not stop as in the gate but when your mind knows, and it’s value of ego, and it's offering you some lucrative ideas of image to value…stop. Because that's a vibration well aware in that choice, is time. So when you are vibrating in an Isness. This is incoming vibration is the moment, the event horizon where the unknown is cutting into the known to the dynamic awareness of you. You are aware of the unknown to the known, right? But of course, your mind says, oh it's the same apartment is the same floors my same car everything's in the same place. No, it's not. Everything is dead, alive, dead, alive, created, collapse, created, collapse, not truly dead just deadly awareness of your existence, to not focusing on anymore. It's gone. 
 
Changes constant reality is constantly changing. It's thousand pens, another thousand. Oh, another thousand. Wow, thousand more pens. Wow, look at that, see how many you see it? See, that's what's happening literally. And you can't catch up to that when you try. And everything has been to get you to this point through allowance awareness and realization. Revelation is to reveal to you that of what you are and to reveal to yourself, what you are, is a preference. And once you are preference in that value, I deserve this, then you can know you are naked to the world and allow it to happen. And of course, you're going to start to catch up with the now and realize. Right? 
 
So what do you want to do to manifest? Start to be using this wielding this power. Well we said onetime you can do this and manifest a little thing a little thing but that's candy and it grows quite lonesome and lackluster because once you manifest the idea of a small thing the natural appetite is to get a bigger and bigger and bigger more valuable thing. When you guys know there's nothing that is valued over anything else in all of reality, save the value you play something for your own coverage of polarity and if you see value over another piece of information creation, then you know you are scoping reality, through polarity, as all is perfect, okay. 
 
So, this manifestor that I am creates an idea reality that doesn't show the self it can create because I know I'm a creator. Right? It's absolutely off the charts, what it is that we are, in your terms. It’s magnificent, if you will. But I don't go around surprised that I'm a creator because I never forgotten I was a creator from this venue right here, this here now hello hi. I know. Now you know, but you have a portion of yourself that doesn't choose to know. Because it's afraid to know, literally, it needs things to know to allow itself to know. Right?
 
Just like you woke up, you guys have all known new knowns that you could never accept before until you evolved into yourself of worthiness. Okay, so the proof is in the pudding on the relationship of where you are right now that you can manifest, but you're not manifesting the things of your preference known. You are manifesting the whole of you, known, otherwise you're not having this reality, every this reality is my truth. That's what you got to know. That's what we told you watch that natural preference start to observe. So you can see. 
 
So, when we get to a certain point of realization with our caught-up self-more current, how do we manifest as a divinicus? A divinicus must know itself has God, not in the fullness, but without doubt, not improve ability, not in justification, not in relatively of others acceptance or yes you are, but it’s internal knowing. Right? 
 
That Kingdom return bubbles and swells and perks and becomes and realizes and it all it is, is just appealing away to reveal what's underneath, what's inside and you bring it out natural. Now when you catch up more to the current of the now because you're not in time looking around on how to manage your life, you're in the now and the current and let life come at you, you're going to realize relationships with things. Like I knew I was getting that well, yeah, because you already created it for you. And you knew you were getting that cause your relationship with that as an awareness. 
 
So that brings you closer to the manifestation of natural that you are bending the light of things coming through into a reality of preference, right? You, what you prefer as a creator. So the more you let go of what you don't prefer by accepting what is, what you're trying to get accepting what is, what you don't want, accepting what is, always doing that notion gives you the revelation of your natural point of view that says manifestation is occurring as my reality and I want on board. Or you can get on board because you're now relating to humanity as a god creating a species _________ has now that self now let's let's let's all know this real quick okay? 
 
I want you guys to know what it is to have intention. This is very difficult to explain. But the intention is not tense in the human relationship. Your intention is for outcome on the planet Earth and human dynamic. You intend to do this, this and this with your life with your day, with your whatever, to get things done so you can sit back at the end of the day and fulfill yourself with your successes that hopefully outweigh your failures lottie, dottie.  
 
This natural intender is not intention. Right? Let's say you're going to tend to something. There's a vibrational potential. So let's say you're going to tend to A, D and D, tend to your husband, tend to your wife tend to the idea of your children. The lost word in a lot of respects. 
 
So, when you do that, you become a vibration attachment co creation to that vibration, because you are tending to it, you're giving it one thing only…awareness, the ______ right. So at that blending moment of manifestation is the current view, which is the whole of you, by the way, because you're a divinicus because now you're not jumping on board and a vibrational relationship of intention, because that becomes a scope of reality a vibrational match called human. But now your relationship is a different approach life in you are tending to reality through your own divinicus because birthing self, give yourself a name it doesn't matter. 
 
So that's self is realizing at that thing there wants to tend to without provocation without boisterous outcome, without hope, without denial, without hmm what's it gonna do for me? Is it worth my time all that fucking shit? It is a natural co creator of that reality potential and what happens is, is you notice the manifestation between you and that vibration that's starting to create a co creative reality. Now that's as far as I want you to go and value right now.  I just want you to feel how you attend to certainties in your mind and maybe, maybe, maybe you can value this. 
 
Your mind is way before your physical reality; but you guys scope your mind and things and betterment which keeps your physical reality vibrationally the same, know that human over here, Homo sapiens. This idea you, you are starting to value potential time-based realities, things of the natural preference. 
 
Now this tending, let's say you're in a physical reality, right? And you're walking down the street right and you want to go into a store you are coming up to a store. You want the door to open by itself. Hear me I know it's a little magical, but it's not magical because it's just the door. Same thing as, what is the difference between the door opening by itself and you grabbing it with a physical idea of kinetic energy? Can I tell you the difference? Belief. 
 
See the door is being created and collapsed every single second, it's actually not moving. It's being created in different ideas of points of now in your reality that give you the notion of a slowdown reality called time. That looks like the doors opening. And that cool. So that door can do the process without you is a kinetic energy because the door doesn't know itself as a need to be opened. The doors the interaction that you create with the door and the door is perceiving the interaction of itself with you as the door. 
 
You never know what the doors gonna know, no reason to. The doors fine, all parts of it glass, metal screws, oil, everything. So let's say you want the door to open by itself. What happens if someone holds it open for you? You tended to the door you want it to open by itself. And it did. But there was a permission slip called another in front of it. Now that's a manifestation of tending that occurs in time. Why didn't it happen instantaneous and the now? Well because of relationship to reality. 
 
Your idea of revealing divinicus self still needs certain attributes of allowable probabilities to occur in something that makes sense to the little young infant divinicus is now being birthed. So this little self goes, someone can open it for me is better than an open by itself now, it may not consciously know that because you're a little baby now, but vibrationally that's what you can accept. All probabilities are on all realities already. But how they vibrate match to the CO creation, reality is directly related to you. 
 
Your worthiness, not your worthiness in realizing you're a creator, but your revelation to the self of creation, how worthy you are to yourself, of knowing yourself as a creator, that portion of yourself will grow into an isness. We use worthiness because this dynamic idea of an infant to worthy yourself to know yourself as a creator until it comes realized that there is no worthiness any longer because there's no question of worthiness, right? So that's going to occur. So it's a phase, it’s an infant stage, if you will. Yes, okay. 
 
So, tending to something is a vibrational match that you are aware. Now, the very, very second you think about it, you need a bus ticket back to fuck, you're going to shut it down. You cannot bring sapient into the divinicus world. The divinicus is a species that exists in a certain vibrational relationship to reality. It is a plane of existence that is not on the equal of a divinicus. Both of you that divinicus and the idea of the sapient or within the construct of view accessible by you. Now that's an honor to do to yourself, to give yourself that ability to realize the separated self from the whole self to becoming one. Extraordinary work really.  Ah, okay (laughter).
 
All right. So I tend to open the door. Now one day, if the door opens by itself, I'm wondering how many excuses you're going to make for it?  I've watched so many people on this planet. Try to figure out how things happened. That shouldn't have happened. Now that figuring brings the self of this tending self into an intention self which changes reality. Now what kicks into high gear the memories created in the moment, right? Because it's going to relate to the demand of the ego. So it's going to give its reasons and reasonalities. It is according to its past experience to contain the experience within something logical. 
Hence, oh, that's how it happened, ha ha ha (laughter) of course, and then you're just the same old fucking train wreck. 
 
Happens every day. Every day I'm out there giving miracles, giving the relationship of worth back to the collective of humanity, and every day they fight and fight for their own unworthiness. Now the question becomes very honest and intimate, doesn’t it? You want to play? This is not a question go surely, this is a question of internal honesty to really know that you are now this not going to be, you are this. You're tending to vibrational mindful, mindful full of your reality potentials because you're living in the idea dynamic of the now catching up and observing things that are potential than your reality. That mindful potential can be tended to. You tend to one thing two things three things and they become more and more manifested. So you can understand, tend, instead of intention, right? And the idea of time is to tend to a probability with energy follows awareness. Okay. 
 
Now you can't claim and wonder why the opposite side is not doing what they're supposed to be doing because that's a command of egoic. That's a command that shuts down your reality to this framework of a constant known that you all have dynamically master called the mutation separation call it what you will, that's one idea. (deep breathing)
 
Let's say no, I don't want you to tend to abundance because it's too dynamic for most of you. Some of you that are comfortably nominee abundance in other words, you have no awareness of abundance being lack you're just absolutely vibration not interested in being that struggle of abundance. Of course, you're not going to manifest as ideas of abundance because there's no concern for that, the ones that have concern about abundance and stuff. Don't do that. Don't go to money because that's, that's a safety call that's a go to that's Oh, I can do this and prove to myself Oh my god, that is the biggest train wreck. What you want to do is tend to what is the potential vibration of the driver? The driver is you the passengers is you, now you're going to realize you're driving. You wake up to the Oh, it's me. Oh, right, but without the death. So anything and everything that comes to your reality is something that is a preference now preferences, not excitement, preferences, not outcome preferences not betterment, preferences, natural feeling attraction, and that has to be realized through this divinicus self. 
 
Every day every fucking now realize yourself as attraction be open, open, open, open, open, don't throw up your barriers and stream through life of consciousness with the own demand of your self worth at the cusp of expression every fucking day. To know what is your potential and know the vibration of my preference, and then you can start tending to the relationships around you and manifest them. Not things manifested by human dynamic creature hood, what they think is manifestation. The whole world is manifested, you're not in the third density as Bashar and said You are the third density, you're the whole fucking Gambit, you are creating the entire relationship with the CO creation of all that is called third density, time ,Earth, planets cachaca universe all of it within you created. 
 
Don't want to try to conquer that. You want to know this because this reveals that. Okay? 
Take this away. When things come to your reality you don't think on how to create them, make them happen. You tend to it. Let's talk about that before we end tonight's giving’s. When you tend to something, aren't you natural? Let's look at Roxy. I mean, the idea of at certain points, you know, she's both dynamic vibrations, male, female, but when she, when she is in the idea of tending to Tommy, there's an idea of that dynamic, that’s her preference, to tend to Tommy and see his needs without asking him. This knows follows that intention? No. Follows the tending to the reality that's being potential and trusting in valuing and going and expressing those things that she knows is dynamically tending to Tommy to whatever they are dinner, making sure he’s comfortable, whatever tending to his need, to his desires, if you will, relationship idea, you understand? 
 
So that right there is a human thing. It's a natural thing, isn't it? So you understand tending to things. Some of you are hard workers. It's not a good or a bad thing. I would think no one will be envious of another was a hard worker, because that's their idea of themselves. To them, however, they're not working hard. They're tending to their preference, their preference wants a vibrational interaction you want to interact with yourself and in some regards as being at work a lot, you're tending to the natural of you. 
 
Now, the natural is a co creation of Tommy Jean the natural is a co creation of work, the natural is to follow the vibration potential and just give an energy and when the energy starts to call upon you an action, preference offered and continuation of the current, continue without doubt, without hesitation, to realize how manifestation is going to reveal itself to you. You're going to see in time the results of your tending to the natural of you. Catching up if you will. 
 
Remember this is this is an infant stage so you can understand you guys have to plateau yourselves, walk up the idea and give you things remembered as you go to reveal to yourself what you already know. And then you're just gonna evolve from this point, whatever way you want to go. Roxy just asked, does that mean you never see your whole self again? The answer is no. Of course, you are your whole self just from a new perspective. New in time but now always know. Remember guys, you're never going to lose yourself in this equation. You can't miss what you were. Because you are what you are focused on that there's no realization of what's not, what's not happened in the humanity lack always know.

​First, let's talk about fractals. I want you to get a new perspective thought. These very strange humans to understand and convey creation to you. See we have to do it in steps things you can reference and build upon and release. And it's like building the endless ladder that has no bottom no, no, top you just keep climbing and magically or wrong appears kind of idea. 
 
So, but, but one of the terms that is confusing is fractal. Let me, let me discuss that with you. Let me go over it, will boil it over together, clay hold it. All right. So (breathing) you consider yourself a portion of the whole of you the individual singularity that creates the whole. And that's kind of strange, because you feel like there's a, as they say, a whole self, a higher self and then there's an oversoul, and then there's an oversoul oversoul, and all those other terms that humanity is caught themselves up with. 
 
Well, if all are one and one are all then you don't need any more than that, see, I, I think you guys are okay saying a fractal is just a point of view. Just an experience of an expression. Right? You're expressing and experiencing as the whole from the whole singularly. So, it can be considered a fractal (meaning never-ending pattern). It can be considered All That Is. So, don't get hung up on this idea is a portion of yourself any longer cause that gives you divisions, and divisions are no longer apathetically. For you, it was used greatly in structure to climb, to wiggle your way to the top and see across the horizon as you've never seen before. So you can understand that the fractal is just a point of view. It's an experience. It's a portion. 
 
Now within this idea expression called humanity that you've been considered fractalized is deemed as a forgotten self. But now it's not. You're not forgotten anymore. You know, you're a God. You're just not good at it. Like you want to be like you used to be. Because you're, let's say taming the Shrew. Hmm. You're kind of getting hold of this chaos and starting to understand how it really is created vibration, trust knowing truth, things that would be not considered a fractal separated, but a just a particular point of view and as an explorer of your own kingdom within. Hmmm
 
So let's not get hung up on that anymore as something of a division, and, and, and, let's not go to the whole self because the whole self creates, and you’re the whole self creating, and you had the creating point of view, and you have the human point of view the expression point of view. And you don't know that you are both in fullness but there are recollections, feelings, vibrations, dreams, certainties. unknowingly, but Hmm, something's there. You know, shit like that, that gets you excited about keep tracking, through the Odyssey of this ascension, you know, this epic journey of unknown. So let's leave fractal out of it as a separated idea. You can call yourself a fractal. It's a point of view. You can call yourself an incarnation because that's what you are. You can call yourself expression because you're always that. 
 
But the defining yourself as something particular that had meaning and purpose should be dealt with and no more ways. Just to let go of let it be free. Let it mutate into some other relationship of vibration that gives you a new run of the ladder a new truth. See, it says consciousness, consciousness, consciousness is recirculated or recycled. It's constantly changing its form. Just like you are changing your reality, changing your expression changing your form, always new, always brand new, brand spanking new and every now and it is that to have the way you project the way you are, the way you receive, that is new. 
 
(4 min, 56 seconds in audio, there is clearly a shift in energy, in frequency at this point) 
 
Creation is one day it's yellow and the same particles of information you call creation or the pool of consciousness is now blue. But it's the same idea. They're just reflecting themselves different as you are seeing them different as well. It's quite magical the endless unlimited, truly. Well, let's understand that point of view. 
 
Channel: Now ahhh, I need your eyes Roxy. HeeheeeeEEhheee, Hmmmm
 
(5 minutes, 33 seconds in audio. There is a change in transmission, this is Marilyn’s sensory picking up. Tingling in legs and arms.) 
 
Channel: Ommmmm. Jennifer has a question. (The channel is reading the request for Roxy to ask him. “Him” is used as genderless)
Jennifer to Roxy: I have a question about expectation and knowing, feeling the ‘we’. Can you ask that tonight? 
 
Channel: I don't see a question in there. I see a statement. (Channel reads through Roxy’s eyes)
 
Channel: Can you clarify your question? (Channel asking Jennifer)
 
Jennifer: Yeah huh, I want to know difference between both? 
 
(6 minutes, 3 seconds in audio, there is energy shifting. Like shots of light after another, by Marilyn’s sensory)
 
Channel: Between what and what? Expectation and knowing? 
 
Jennifer: Expectation and the idea of knowing when you are the WE, that everything is in the moment? 
 
Channel: Well we can give you the difference. You have an inert, that yet valid feeling about when you are knowing, and when you are expecting. Because the expecting gives you butterflies in your stomach. It gives you anticipation. It gives you not now, that simple. 
 
(6 minutes, 35 seconds, in the transmission there is a pick-up again in frequency, noticed by Marilyn’s sensory. Marilyn will ask Roxy if healing was taking place? Arthritis, hand muscle something, healing in one of the listeners?)
 
Knowing is now. Even if it doesn't lie in the now that you are in, it lies somewhere as a probability. 
 
(Makes sense with Universe. All exists and it is each one perceiving what already exists) 
 
When you know those relationships is truths. Then there's a distinct feeling that is most certain. That has nothing to do with an expectation you're feeling. You guys have been expecting about getting up and going to work the next day. You expect about Christmas morning. You understand about a blind date, a first date, you understand about a divorce court, you understand about the birthday coming up or a trip to Disneyland. See those are things of times that you lay around in expectations and wonderment and then has a distinct vibrational feeling. The inert feeling that is now bubbling itself up to know in itself is not a inert (meaning passive) anymore. mystified, not present but truly always there and noticeable but yet influential, influential, certainly. It is that consciousness of knowing that I am knowing this. 
 
So, let me give you an example of knowing. You know your here now. All of you one way or another, there’s something within a perspective of your reality that offers zero doubt, zero expectation, zero concern. There is a presence always in all now's of ISNESS. Whether you can find it or not. Doesn't really matter…does it? It's just you changing the relative realities of feeling to give you an experience. 
 
But as you notice yourself changing, maybe even seeking, then you know, you're having an experience that has the ability to change, the ability to see, to seek. And then all of a sudden that feeling of being the creator of change, being the seeker of what is this, what is that? Then you want to be sudden know that you are knowing that's the self that is. 
 
So, if you're looking at particulars of time, and how they're going to play out, well, you can't, because there's no certainties until the now. That's why everything is here and now. We gave you time, you gave yourself times, creation gave us time, all that is. This idea as an experience, time opened up a whole new world. It allows us to reflect. It created the social memory complex as you guys consider a soul. It created reflected timelines it created time travel, it created a whole bunch of things, as well as a million other ways to feel about your world, about your life, other incarnations all around the galaxies, densities, in such manner you use time as an ally, as an asset, as a hindrance, as a need as a want as you do, you know, different ways of relating to time. 
 
(9 minutes, 34 seconds, sensation of fast forward motion pictures)
 
And one of the things that is given humanity is expectations. I wasn't expecting that. See, if you're not expecting that, then what were you expecting? There's the feeling of expectation that is unique in and of itself. All of you've had it, all of you know it, all of you are certain of it. So what you truly know is yet you know, the feeling of expectation and that knowing is also present. Isn't it? In expectation. So there's no difference except point of view, they are distinctly the same vibration of ISNESS, taken and bent into an experience, adding in the salt and pepper of flavor, that of time, that of expectations, that knowing creates all of these things. So knowing is the certainty of here and now, that bursal experience, to be had, to be probable, to be forgotten to be remembered as an idea coupled with time. 
 
And it can go in many different directions and time doesn't have to be included this knowing idea. But expectations, is something of Ah aaa, iiiiif you're hung up on it, and you're disappointed, then you're having expectations. You don't want to know with expectations because you're not having a knowing in an expectation, what you're having is a known expectation. 
 
Because if you know you have expectations, then there is no knowing one probability to be perceived and then there's no expectation probability. There now two separate ideas. Knowing expectation gives you expectation, knowing doesn't have expectation. 
 
(Marilyn’s interpretation is that expectation is anticipating the knowing. Knowing is natural, it is now and expectation is anticipating a new perspective that may or may not become a knowing, only if  the creator chooses to explore this.)
 
So what do you get knowing that's what you'll get. So let's say, you know, you're going to be alive tomorrow. There's zero doubt, for whatever reason, this is all subjective. So don't try to compare yourselves and download the people because you are interested in doubting yourself. If you know that there is, let's say, a can of soup in the pantry hmmm, so you go there and you know, it's there. You don't expect it's there. Because if you expect it to be there's a probability, you know, expectation, so that reality becomes certain more so than the knowing reality by itself. 
 
Channel: Now, does this offer clarity? (Channel is asking Jennifer)
 
Jennifer: Yeah, it does. I mean, I think that the that knowing aspect is helping me not get so worried about anything outside of the now anymore. 
 
(12 minutes, 22 seconds in audio and it is exact time in Germany as Marilyn transcribes this transmission. She is vibrating, or a sense of vibe on her legs and hands. Now she hears church bells. FYI, first time listening to this transmission)
 
Channel: Well I hope so, because there was nothing outside of the now. 
 
Jennifer: Rrright.
 
Channel: Everything here, everything just like expecting, worrying is the same thing. It's an asset and an ally created by time. You can't worry in the now because the occurrence of knowing is now. Worry is another valid idea created to a experience coupled with time. What is there to worry about? The things that you've habited yourself as a probability of knowing worry. Put those together you have a worrying experience. But if you know that this won't happen or this will happen, then you can't have worry. Because there's no room in that, either you’re that truth, or this truth. Make sense? 
 
Jennifer: Yeah, but so how do you huhmmm…stay in the present moment, but function in time with people around you? 
 
Channel: What do you give me an example? 
 
Jennifer: Well, let's say you're talking about something that's gonna happen in a week. 
Channel: Huhmmm.
Jennifer: But huhmm…you're doing it from the present moment. 
Channel: Yes. 
Jennifer: HaaaHhh. You I guess my mind doesn't get it yet. Doesn't understand that yet. 
 
Channel: Your mind wants it to happen. But you can't put that stipulation on it. What you can do is working within the bounds of what you know is going to happen. Remember that entity aaa Nivo, Bashar you guys call him channel through Darryl Anka. Right? 
 
Jennifer: Yeah.
 
Channel: Okay. There was one time he was interacting with one of the fractal humans, you understand man, it says,” Is it possible for you to have a billion dollars?” No. “a million dollars?” No. “500,000?” No “100,000?” Yes.  See in those ideas, those become relative to work. So they can have a probability of knowing. So let's say for example, Roxanne has in a couple of weeks, a channeling for two days, right? That's a knowing there's no doubt or expectation about that. But there might be an expectation about it, or there might be an expectation about the future, or you can't have that relationship. Either it does or it doesn't. So, if you can't handle what you would call the two months out, not knowing how it's going to happen, then don't commit to it. Because now you're going to have an experience of non- committal, until you, you get reality of knowing that extends itself in worthiness as you move forward with validation. 
 
So in other words, you have no doubts about the December. Maybe you have an idea about a January. Is it going to happen? Yes. How is it going to happen? Does it matter? So Are you uncomfortable to know how it's not going to happen? Or knowing how it is going to happen? You have to be defined within yourself, what part is bothering you? Because you can't control it! (the channel is using strong tones within high vibrations) Because you don't have the means to make it certain in the now of time. So, in other words, let's say you have the Garland hometown $22,000. I'm looking at Roxy's history, right, right. If you guys have $22,000, then you had a knowing about that event. But since you don't have $22,000, then there's an expectation about if it's going to happen or not. And you want to allow it, but you still worry about it correct? 
 
Jennifer: Yeah. 
 
Channel: Well, you don't put your you don't do that idea. You don't move in the direction to where you can't understand the relationship that is not knowing that. It's not that you're going to miss opportunity, because there's 1000 other ways Roxy can speak. 
 
Jennifer: Yeah, Yeah, well that makes sense. 
 
Channel: And it's, it's, it's your relationship to your own worthiness that creates realities of time. So Roxy absolutely knows that she is going to be in December speaking. She absolutely knows that she's going to be in LA wherever that is in LA, you have LA but there's 1000 LAs, and in whatever section of LA and she knows you're going to speak on the 12th and she knows you're going to be on the 19th. She has no known, how she's going to get there, but she knows she's going to be there. Then that's it. She doesn't relativity anymore, doesn't give it the fathoming idea of attention that it thinks it needs. Because it doesn't. Whenever it presents itself as something to interact with it, that's when it's done. It's not done anytime before because we don't need certainties when we trust we are creators. 
 
But if something doesn't happen, like we don't get the money for this idea to travel or hire a company to do all the AV or such ideas, those things don't play out. That means there's something else. You can't be disappointed, because then you're an expectation of a certain badge or a certain image or a certain outcome, which is right back to the self that controls reality through effort. You have to trust that it's going to happen and whenever it doesn't happen, something else is happening, that is immeasurable also. Make sense? 
 
Jennifer: Yeah. Yeah, I mean it it brings up the idea of trust in in in yourself in every moment. And whatever does come about is whatever it's just coming about. 
 
Channel: Well yeah, at your stage, anything that says not that its your belief systems bubbling up to the surface for you to scrape away, allow them, embrace them and get rid of them and keep NOW what you know. And any of the other drama you're going through is your drama! Nobody else that belongs to you, you're choosing the creative because you know the difference. You know, you don't have to be dramatic anymore. You know that it hurt you emotionally, send you off the edge, but you have an amount of awareness to say, whoa, this is no longer my truth. I don't have to be this emotion, this fear, this worry, this aches. Now I can work on it because it's the suffering that you guys endure so others don't have to. Right?  
 
Jennifer: Yeah, thank you. 
 
Channel: You're welcome. However, it's gonna play out it's gonna play out. Roxy started slide classes almost three years ago. She's had plenty of students come through the class, by any model of humanity. This is successful. The YouTube has been on for five years that model is successful. The effort that Roxy’s she's done to do make these things better zero. She's not interested in better she's interested in knowing herself. And as that modality it keeps incorporating as her truth. She attracts those supportive ideas and co creation, to allow ourselves to expand naturally, not forcefully not egoic-ally, not image theory, imaged image imagery, imagery. Ahha. It is just the pursuit of her own exploration which is attractive to those of authentic, and the authentic ones join in and give you the idea of the we to have her experience her eye as her truth. So, it all it's gonna happen, how it happens when it happens doesn't matter, but you just know what's happening. That's all you just know what's happening. You be there in the happening. (breathing deep) or that makes sense. 
 
(Marilyn feeling like out of breath, taking deep breathing. Something was triggered, a belief surfaced. First time to just do in each moment what feels happy and fun, because it is a knowing, instead of anticipating or analyzing what this will result in. The belief system of bad consequences, so you better do what is right is dissolving into a new perspective. This perspective is doing what is NOW happy, and enjoyable is ENOUGH! She is having fun, transcribing these transmissions for the joy of it and so it is. Appreciating the co-creating with Roxy who is receiving these transcribes.)  
 
Jennifer: Yeah, it does. Thank you. 
 
Channel: So, when you guys are, are, digging deeper and deeper, well, let's say the easy parts done we've, we've given you that before. Everything you've gone through is just a mishmash of emotional reactions. Now the really the masterwork is, is self identity. Is existence is this image that you guys keep going back to.  
 
(Interruption flow by the channel) By the way, Brandon. Roxanne, thank you for the birthday gift. She opened it, it loves it and hasn't set it up. She hasn't found a place for that. But she has the reads out. Suppose very nice, thank you. (Channel thanks someone for a gift to Roxy, acknowledging the gift and intention)
 
So anyways hmmmm see this, this, this, self of image it, it, it, reaches to gain admiration when you see yourself doing that. See, that's a self sustaining and you recognize that now? But are you doing the work? I mean, this is the deep stuff that hurts. This is the absolute stuff that you have to know that you're doing that and no one has control over that except you. You can't blame, you can't assign, you can't become a victim, any longer because you're too well versed in your own creative skills as a separated. You know it's only your world subjective created for you by you all the time. Everything that around you, is your attractive truth. There's nothing else to know about anything except that now that offers the knowing that you already are. And you experienced the flow of your now imaginative self being a experienced self. No longer seeking outside of itself are those images. The habits of maintaining now realized when you no longer validate of you're no longer imaged. No longer image means you have no longer familiarities, no longer habits, no longer the things that kept your comfort, secured, stable and comfortable. The wheel seems to be a little jet. Right?
 
So you want to start living as you have always done. But when you find yourself crying like a stuck pig, shut up. Unless you just don't want to do it anymore. Why would you not want to do your own ideas of suffering? Why would you want to negate any portion of your discovered self? You don't think you can handle it? How can you not handle look what you've already handled in life, all of you have experienced death. All of you experienced birth. All of you have experienced everything in between all of it. What the hell are you afraid of? You're afraid to lose the image. Because that's easy. It's so easy. Being an image. It's so easy to be an asshole to someone. It's so easy to be kind to someone and offer beauty and compassion. It's so easy to be polarized. It's a world of I know this. I know these worlds. But what you don't know is beyond humanity. And when you start to feel that, but it doesn't give you the human dynamic. This is the deeper work. It's the work that this shovels all standard. I think Seth talked about them as core beliefs. There's only a few. And you guys are sitting right here. There's no more bridge beliefs, all that stuff, all that top side stuff wise and who's wins and hide doubts? Why did they say that? What did they say that for? Blelelelelelelelelel. All that's gone. 
 
Now it's you an intimate portion of you, that you have experienced as a separate itself. You have a view of, you know the self. If you choose to engage in that as a choice, then that is your own pain, you're securing for an experience. But if you are unrecognized in that action and then see it, then you have discovered a core. And don't act like an ascender any longer. Remember the wrong that appears and disappears. Time for a sender to go away. You're not an ascender, you're Oh God. You're here. If you image yourself as that proportion, that knowing of whatever you define that truth is to be is the limitation you will enact it. So if you call yourself an ascender, what is that? Well, that's what you say it is. And you can only have an action reaction and interaction within that frequency scope, and have an experience about that subject. But if you broaden your horizons to the ISness of now, with no conjecture of image, well then you have the plethora of creation coming a bound at you to have you fulfilled. And if you're shocked and awww once again, then you're playing that trumpet, because you're just too goddamn afraid to know that your God and there's nothing you need to control to gain your admiration, especially at the expense of others! You don't need to do this to people anymore. You don't need to control people. You don't need to say anything is right or wrong because there is no successful future. There is no failed future there is only the presence, the current of now and if you start to be that broad horizon, to be the now with whatever is employed in your life as a perspective, if it tinging on you. And you know no longer is your truth and let it go speak your words. But if it is a reaction self that goes, no, no, no, that's not gonna work because, because, because then you're all of a sudden a knowing of anger, of separation, then you know, you're playing an image. 
 
(Audio time is 27 minutes and 18 seconds. Marilyn is in tears releasing the belief of “at the expense of others” which was a way to validate if she is worthy or not through the acts of kindness.) 
 
These things will play out, but you have to get serious with yourself. You have to get I'm a grown up adult now. I'm not perpetrating like I'm an adult. Like all these people do. So many people play their adult idea. They think adult conversations what they are is a very, very afraid children. That has 1000 layers of clothes on them. Each torn off as their life goes. And the closer they become the death, the more negative they become. That's why all people don't give a shit. Because they're tired of all these images. These portions of the work that you're doing now are the deepest parts of you. And they're frustrating. But you got to be aware, when you get a reaction in your mind, you can't become the reaction. You have to even observe the reaction of the self, you know, you are creating. 
 
You have to say, wait a minute, why am I upset about this part of me? That's a new point of view. That's taking the corn diminishing it. You guys got to stop thinking. We have very, very large egos that are holding desperately on to the image. In the simplest thing is, is all of you can have your images depleted with money. But then with money, you're gonna have create more images because you are creating those things. And using those things as an image. Do you get it? 
 
See, when you have an idea of let's let's take the easy one money, images. Humans create money for purposes for needs, for wants. And when you have that, that's all created in the image realm, your relation to it is the same as it was whether you had it or not. It's a mean of access. Right? But you don't go out and gain, and seek, and try to create air. You don't. Air is the same as money.
It's your relationship to it. It's the human dynamic relationship to it. You're not going to all of a sudden have money fall out of the air. That's not what we're talking about here. We're talking about not being a fractal in relationship to your reality, and then everything about your reality starts to shift including money. But I can shed 90% of your beliefs with a whole bunch of money. But if I do that, you do that for yourself, truly, then what happens? You create a whole nother perspective of limitation, and validate the imagery, just in a different relationship. Just a different point of view. 
 
I'm poor, I'm rich, but I'm still separated idea. Right? So all the things that the images make image creator, do you have to be a sharpshooter on this you got to be really nasty, and start to recognize the depths of your image. When it's asking you for fun stuff and you know, it's bullshit. Don't do it. Stop. It's painful, isn't it? Because you think you need to know. And once you know you're disappointed, you always are disappointed, but you want the disappointment because you love the action of anticipation. See, that's a cycle and then you do it again and again and again and again. And it gives you what the simplicity of the image you guys are well versed in this, okay? You guys are getting it down. 
 
So you don't want to relate to any of human through human knowings the truth of humanity, you have to be coming, knowing self of hearing now that knows itself relating to creation, as a God as a holistic point of view that doesn't react to the emotional experience of the past that it deems as valid. And if it can't help itself, but to react and recognize its reaction, and of course, does the same idea allows it, accepts it, and no longer chooses to be that. But don't react to that situation to a human mind. It's the same thing. You're just being human doesn't no matter where who it belongs to. It's the vibration, vibration, vibration, that you really need to understand. 
 
You’re creating, you got to be sharp, you got to look deep. You got to understand what you're doing to yourselves, and no one else doing it to you. And it's not a victimization of doing it to you. It's the experience of truths chosen, these truths chosen, give you the experience of yourself. You want to understand what it is to be abundant on the planet. Well, you can't be a human about it because abundant lies and certainties, analyzes images, not everyone's image because a man’s trash is another man's treasure. It lies within your image of that, your truth and whatever your value with that your worthiness according to that will be your experience because it all is the frequency match. You guys know this. So that's why we want to tear down everything human to have you relate to humanity as open, as embracing as vulnerable, as undefined as the picturesque flow, then you can no longer value these things as a humanistic reaction man or giving you the same cyclic manner of creation over and over again. You're going to have new experiences but these new experience don't have foundations. They don't have certainties. They don't have comforts of image they don't have Oh my god, what am I going to do without this? Oh my god, what about this? Oh, my God, this isn't happening yet. It's not happening. Right! All of these things are human. They're not rights and wrongs. They're not salvations are not problematic. They're experiences of truth. They're natural to you. And as you start to notice yourself in these things, which you all have, you can do something about it. 
 
Ahhhh yes you can. You know what's very interesting about humanity? A lot of people don't know this is I it's been said in the class a few times, is that you guys are unlimited. See on Earth, you have governing laws. But it can't stop you. It might prevent you from actually playing it out in the experiential life as a human, but it cannot prevent you. These laws cannot prevent you from creating them in your imagination. Right? Which of course is already an experience because as soon as you thought of it, you've already known it as an experience because everything is here now. Right? Okay, good. 
 
(Audio 34 minutes and 52 seconds, another shift in energy Marilyn is sensing in this part of the upcoming transmission) 
 
(breath taken) The idea of limited is what people perceive humanity as here's look at you guys. You guys are train wrecks, you have chemicals all over the earth, you have things that kill each other. You have people that purposely do things to thin the herd to keep medicines going, hmm, do add additives to different things to give you other relationships of need. Right? Perfect. See, these are all human ideas. These are not rights and wrongs. You got to be a big boy now and look at this as creation. And you don't have to be any part of that as that relationship. You can change your relationship to any dynamic, enter to be experiential beyond polarity. Well it of course, because you're a God. 
 
Humans got to realize that there are unlimited not only in the physical but as the incarnation, wherever that incarnation is in relationship to the here and now, it is an unlimited being. It is your limitations that you place upon yourself, either known or unknown that create your world as a human. But when you back off from human into God creating human then your relationship with that must change because that's the dynamic of the here and now and all truths are truths in the moment. So even if you don't know you're a God, but you are being the God to the best of your ability, not validating the idea of the fractal self and all the images you know, then when you are not that then you must be this. And this is God creating the image and you're not creating the image, so you must be perspective, from a Godly point of view. 
 
There's a vibrational Isness a knowing Jennifer wanting to understand. That knowing is God me, singularity existence, I am, however you want to see it. It needs no justification nor no debate, because you're not interested in validating your own existence. As a human you're very interested in it because that's how you manage or control the chaotic life of separation. Whereas a God, you don't give a flying fuck truly. So you also have to see that this incarnation that you are is not eliminate incarnation, it's a unlimited incarnation. You just don't know how to do the things that would show you they are unlimited, but you're doing them every day. You're doing things you don't realize you're doing because you're paying attention to the human terms of limitation, instead of the non-boundary ideas that lie within the human scope of reality. God creating humanity hmmm. So you can be shocked about these things. And, and when you get tripped up on little candy ideas, don't eat the candy any longer. No reason to give yourself diabetes. Stop. Unless you just love that so much that you don't love yourself enough to go beyond.  The fractal is the one that doesn't go beyond a whole self can't love itself anymore. So you're really truly not losing anything. You're just giving yourself experience of not deserving more than what you are. And you don't deserve the things of human expectations. You deserve a relationship of worthiness to yourself, which creates everything. So you bypass just skirt around all the fucking processes of humanity, trying to trudge their way through the muck and mire of ascension with all the processes that just weigh you down. Hmm. 
 
You might be in the same idea as Bob Marley in his forge chain over time, you're carrying that shit around when you're trying to ascend through the same processes of limitation. You got to change your scope you got to be okay with the painful journey it shows. You got to trust that it's a masterclass. You got to know that it's your world. You got to start acting on it and speaking up for yourself and not worrying about pissing anyone off or offending anybody. You got to stop being a prisoner of your own mind and start to live the exaltation of the Isness. You have discovered in yourself by awakening and then your realities become exceptional. Again, take some time and it takes a little bit of guts and you're afraid you're gonna make mistakes and you're not certain it doesn't matter, because you have forever.
 
You have forever. You have an infinite number of do overs called now now now now now everything is erased now now now everything has gone now now everything is new. Right? (Yawning)
 
Well these memory keeps things alive is certainties. The less you pay attention to these things, the more you become the Isness of now. Truly. (breathing deep) 
 
Channel: Anyone got anything? Shoot to share about something?
 
Brent: I had a question. 
 
Channel: Hello Brent. 
Brent: Who are we speaking with?  
Channel: Ohhuhhhhhhh shhhhhh. (laughter) Roxy goes John O’Connor (laugher) just call me Isness for right now. Just, just, a perspective of you guys, whatever. I guess the best way to say it is I take parts of the class that are sticky points and I put them as a relative realities so you all can unstick yourselves. How about that? 
 
Brent: Okay. Um, the other day when Tommy was sick, um, whoever was speaking said that they would come back to the main class and talk about which is their lifestyle, we're going to leave you with the biggest false truth that humidity believes is that mind, body, and spirit. But that your body is in the spirit is just mind and spirit. (the recording here is distorted but the idea is clear enough to understand the question)
 
Channel: They said that? 
Brent: Yeah, and then they were like we're going to talk about tonight but then this team speaker didn't come back. We talked about something else. 
Channel: Okay, go over that again.
 
Brent: Um, they were like, because Tommy was asking about being sick. 
 
Channel: Okay, Tommy, Tommy Jean?
 
Brent: Yes.
 
Channel: Was asking about being sick.
 
Brent: Yup, huhmmm and Roxy got off the computer to take care of him but they're like we're going to leave you with the biggest false truth that humanity was taught was mind, body, and spirit. But its major, mind and spirit. 
 
Channel: Right.
 
Brent: Is in your mind? 
 
Channel: That's what is in your mind? 
 
Brent: The body is in the mind. 
 
Channel: What is it? 
 
Brent: Yes. 
 
Channel: Okay. They're going to leave you with that. And they left you with that. 
 
Brent: Yeah. We got ahead. 
 
Channel: Is there something else to know about that? If you know that the body in and of itself is of the mind created the holistic mind? Well, let me give you spirit. Spirit is an existence of that you guys can fathom. Because you can't know Isness because there's no edges to it? Right? 
 
Brent: Yes. 
 
Channel: Let's look at history of humanity together. You guys have spirits. Hmm. You've had spirits since beginning of time. You've had Gods. Right?  You've had other than you've had ghosts, you've had ideas of things that go bump in the night. Are you following me? 
 
Brent: Yeah. 
 
Channel: So since humanity validates that we use that. So how do you understand yourself other than spiritual? Without a reference point? Can you just be a thought instead of a spirit? In other words? (moment of silence) I'm asking.
 
Brent: Yes, yeah. 
 
Channel: So we can erase spirituality and put thoughtfulness. Right? 
 
Brent: Yeah. 
 
Channel: So what about the mind? What do we do with that? (moment of silence) You're starting to pick up what I'm trying to tell you?
 
Brent: Yeah. 
 
Channel: There’s no solid here, kid. 
Brent: Yeah.
 
Channel: We're showing you that you can be nothing but an Isness. But you have to have something to relate to. Are you following? 
 
Brent: Yes. Yeah. 
 
Channel: So humanity needed mind body spirit because you all you can do is to see aspects defined. That's the attributing factors that you guys consider as valid. But there is no body. The body is spiritual, is it not? It's a vibrational light. So why not call it light instead of light body? 
 
Brent: Yeah. 
Channel: Are you following me? 
Brent: Yes. 
 
Channel: Whatever is validated through the human construct. One of the biggest ideas of a false truth is that you create a body but you're not a body. Now, what about the mind? Is the mind a creation? Is it true there? Is it's solid? No. The only thing that is solid is existence. The only thing that is solid is everything is here and now. The only thing that is solid is the all or one of one or all. The only thing that is solid is what you put down what you get back. The only thing that is solid is the change. The constant change occurs in all aspects of the laws just given. Those laws can't change. That's it. So you cannot get hung up on rungs of the ladder. What you have to do. (moment of silence, a pause) You have to resolve rungs of the ladder your own way Ahhhhhhh (pause again) there we go. Does this makes sense to you my friend? 
 
Brent: Yes. 
Channel: Yes?
Brent: Yes, it does. Yeah. Thank you. 
Channel: Good. So when you when you want to understand what was you have to get intimate. Brent. I'll give you a newsflash, you're a God. All truths are truth in the eye of the beholder. So what does that mean truly to you? (connection on phone line or internet sounds…I take notes on this because is goes synchronicities of alignment with this conversation)Let’s discuss. What does it mean? Mute yourself Yogi. Brent I’m talking to you.
 
Brent: I'm the creator of my own truth. 
 
Channel: Yes. So when you get a truth want to dissect it yourself. What are you afraid of getting it wrong? How can you get anything wrong if all truths are truth? When I say is, is to me, there is no doubt of anything. I don't give a flying who nanny what anyone says about says about my Isness, because I am part of those standards existence. All truths are truth. My truth is existence. So I can do whatever I want are you following?
 
Brent: Yes. 
 
Channel: Okay. So when when you get something offered, don't look for the answer on the other side, start to investigate. I mean, truly, what are we? We thought. Aren't we? 
 
Brent: Yeah. 
 
Channel: We. Aren’t we just constantly thinking? Aren't we having an experience up here? Everything else is still here. Isn't it? All your senses translated through this wonderful idea receptor mind giving you an image of, of a car and a door in these senses giving you a physical reality of interaction with your physical space. Is it all not thought? 
 
Brent:  Yeah. (the questioners tone changed to softly surrender)
Channel: So don't look for finites anymore. Don't look for certainties. Get what you can from the classes, take the baton start to run, start to become alive in you. You're not looking for an end zone because there is none. There is just the constant change and exploration of Brent. Makes sense? 
 
Brent: Yeah, thank you. (very softly response again as a surrender, humbling expression from the questioner)
 
Channel: You welcome. (the channel also responds in softer tones) 
Yes Hmmmm (deep breathing and a pick- up in tone back to what channel’s usual vocalization)
So, you have to look at reality is taking it in and saying yes to it. But if you notice yourself being a human about it. Now the human I'm talking about is anywhere in polarity. Awesome! Ah, right in you got to start looking at those truths that are flowing in you get this human dynamic, interacting with this stimulus of creation coming at you as a truth, mind you, that truth is interactive now, in a different relationship. Because you have awareness and you can be a relative reality and change the truth. It might be hurting while you're doing it but you can you can start to change the relationship. (breathing)
No worries. 
 
Giselle: I have a question.
 
Channel: Hello Giselle. 
 
Giselle: I don't know if this is diarrhea or not, but do you have to relate or experience at all? 
 
Channel: You mean as as existence? 
 
Giselle: Yeah. 
 
Channel: Yes. Otherwise you would be a non existence and then you wouldn't be unable to ask that question. 
 
Giselle: Okay. 
 
Channel: So existence is always experiencing. It is always expressing. Every moment you are both symbiotic experiencing and expressing the WE is expressing to you, its experience. And you are expressing to the WE your experience, your truth, if you will, that never goes away. There is zero possibility for you to ever be non existence. Because as the idea of Daryl Anka has channeled this idea of non existence is full. Everything in existence is and everything in non existence is, which is truly is not. So, welcome to awareness for eternity. You're never gonna not have an experience. (you can hear and feel Giselle smiling at this perspective)  Isn't that great? We created sleep. (laughter)
 
Why does he keep doing that? You guys hear that little ding dind dind din…hmmmm hmmmm (humming)  Hang on…anything else anyone? (pause)
Okay. Look, you guys have relative truths to yourself. When you want to assign them to other people, then you are a coward to your own truth. When you are afraid to express your own truth, then you are a coward to your worthiness. Never be ashamed of your existence. Humanity gives you those things. And before you never noticed you had no choice about being ashamed of your existence, about being wronged, and victim, and betrayed. You know too much. You have awareness, an exceptional amount of awake. You've grown up into the adulthood of ascension. And now you have a relationship with truth that has never been done for you. And now you can choose your relationship with reality. And you can see an entire new experience that is going to last forever. Truly, not humanity. We're talking experience. That's all we have unless there's nothing else. Okay. Going going keep it to boop bop ba gone. Good day.

​We're going to tackle more intimate things as we progress.  Most of your classes occurrence to get your attention, then get your acceptance and now we're going to understand relationship at a vibrational level. 
 
The commandment of truth if you would, you must understand this as a standard. What you put out is what you get back, so you need to know this. That your vibration is truth, not your thoughts. Your secondary thoughts are time-based reality’s reflection of upon, from your truth. It is potential, it is regret, it is past, futures, whatever the hell you want to name it as a thinking modality. Labeling reality as such matters to behold. I really need you to pay attention to where you're at now.
 
See, the ego so quickly wants to make an image. And it does it by saying thank you. It does it by apologizing. It does it by, well I had to do this. It does it by justifying, it does it by any means possible. You must know that the image itself is a reflection. It is an echo of you. It is the secondary idea validated. So, you have to understand you're the streaming consciousness that creates and reflects in the miracle of this whole fucking game. Literally, is your understanding that you are a fractal amiracle.
 
It's not miraculous to be paid for and gracious for that's all crap. It is the joy of self discovery. It is another way to know yourself. So, in the grand scheme of saying things, it really doesn't mean anything. It's just another constant of change that you have bestowed upon yourself and it is unconditional, it is beyond your emotional equation. It is so much more than that. But you have ways to represent that. Usually you praise or think, or a gratuitous in whatever mannerisms showing gratitude, the ego is always that. 
 
Now to recap, the ego is twofold. It is reactionary, as well as chosen. The unnoticed part of you, is the reactionary part and the observant part of you can see that reactionary part. And the chosen part is to bullshit yourself. That's simple. You know, you don't need to say or ask or do any of these things, but you do them anyway because you're choosing to be safe, comfortable, imaged, happy, mediocrity, something reflected upon the truth of the now.  On the truth it creates.
 
I want you to look like, look at that, like it's a monumental structure. A burst of light bursting out of the Earth at a billion miles an hour. Brrrrrrrshhhhh!! Just fucking explosion! That's a now, that's your truth that's creating! It's creating black holes, it's creating planets. It's creating densities and realms and incarnations. It's creating the softest idea with the most powerful explosion, the butterfly wings. Hmmm. You got to know that that is what truth is attracting and giving opportunity for this practical reflective to know itself. 
 
And when you don't know you're doing the self of separation, well, there's no consequence…is there? It's the life of consequence as a human, right? If you really look at it, you have a bad time because you think it's a bad time. But you didn't know you don't have to see it that way. So it's a consequence to the human but it's really not consequence in any realm. 
 
All right, you know what it is? Truth chosen truth. But as you guys start to see your actions, the more you implore your truth for the self. The more you accept the magnanimous pain of being wrong, but it's truly not wrong now, right? It's accepting your point of view. That's not wrong with humanity. That's just not your truth any longer. You want to do something about it.
 
Roxy had an incident just today realizing her fears of future and of course has to do with money. Because she grew up, we can't do these things. So her whole life was dictating how things can be done. Assessing her now in the access to gain knows things to be done through the monetary needs, because that's the only way she can see be done. So she's working on that in a constant. She found another, another part of her today. It cut it hurt. He wanted to anger she wanted to break her fucking glass desk. She wanted to smash things because that's the way she feels better. She beats things, throws dishes, breaks things. She used to hit herself but she's past that now for her stupidity, right. This whole self loathing fucking it doesn't need to be there.
 
But Doesn't mean those words make it go away! The obvious shit for you is not obvious to anyone else! So just blurting it out saying, “Oh, well just let that go!” Doesn't mean dick, except to you. Now that's where you've got to know yourself, okay? You got to stop being some kind of fucking realization preacher any longer. Because that's another image. See it shifting to a turncoat that is unrecognizable. If you know, that's all it is, you keep talking about it, you're creating a talk about.
 
A moment will give you the idea of passion. Someone starts one completely conversation. You have nothing to do with that conversation. You don't want anything relating it in your reality. So you talk about something completely else. The image would have to engage in that conversation. And maybe be polite and say, I don't want to talk about this. This is all things getting down to the core of constant change of truth.  And constant change of staying the same in the vibrational choice of an image. 
 
We have to hone our skills even further. You got to stop doing that of what you know is no longer. Yes, you might be bored as hell because you can't talk about shit, but you can talk about shit. But talk about the shit and know that you're talking about a shit, so you can have a shitty time!
 
See, the seeking (thinking) mind is the only one that's bored. The mind that entertains that escape is recognition.  For you the conscious fractal, becoming hall to know that it's reality needs no entertainment through the corms of humanity's lusts, desires that are considered entertaining. 
 
Doesn't mean you abolish yourself from things of entertainment. Again, fractal it means you passion yourself in the moment and there's no relationship with image. Intimate itself must be lived constantly. That intimacy with you is honest, selflove not self loath. You keep continuing always justify your existence. You don't know the unexplored conversations you can have with humans, because you're always confiding in the idea of mediocrity, as a way to be not too shaky, not too (obtuse or abuse), not too weak, not too strong. These ideas, anything that keeps you in caged in your own world of same, is an image. 
 
So yesterday we had a human incarnation that has passed on named turtle.  Come in and talk about relationships, and he blew it out of the fucking water. Is amazing to the human self to realize because these conversations don't have preferences of dictation ship on what is practical and what is sensible. Oh, also responsible and of course respectful. These are the guidance of humanity. Why guide through image you're creating an imagination so you can see your creation. In this particular realm, you get to see it in images, don’t you? You get to see a dog and a cat, some stairs and a tree, a plate of food and a fork you get to experience images. You are in a virtual reality that is really fucking real because of truth. Notice that? Notice every reality is so real you've never questioned it. If it's bullshit, once you've questioned is up here in your mind, is that really real? Because it's not a present. 
 
Well, let's get into the present. Let's stop playing in the idea of secondary echoes, thoughts of past and future, and hopes, and glories, and demise, and sufferings. You know, it's funny the Pope has admitted that Lucifer, God, we all said it. This is the one that's the crumbling of Christianity, the crumbling of Muslims, the crumbling of religion. It's going to take a long time. But it started it not wonderful? 
 
Is, he wasn't respectful. He didn't have a purpose or a job. You know what he? What? What what he's doing? Why he's doing it? Okay. I'll give you, why? Because he can't live with himself anymore. Knowing truth. 
 
The Pope has access to the Vatican. The Vatican has secrets. Maybe he went for a stroll. He started ripping himself apart.  Seeing how he is enslaving his own people and freezing them with fear. Hmm. Seeing their sweat, their tears as means of compensation to the church. So it may endure so what are you guys gonna do, what a Christian gonna do? What do you guys usually do? Hmm 
 
So you guys look at the softness of Christianity Today huh? See I don't see time I see Christians vibration. You know Christians do? It takes other races they force them into Christianity if not they commit genocide. Ain’t that lovely? If you don't believe what I believe I'm gonna kill you. And they did. Over and over again. (Brooks) gave him a hell of a run. Muslims too. Pretty much anyone else that didn't have the ingenuity of the ideas, the honing craft of barbaric scouts thugs guess what they were not experienced in that Mayans, Native Americans fuck’em. Let God sort them out. Haaa gla glahh.  you fucking country fuck heck redneck Christian love and Bible busted fuckstick…in that wonderful? 
 
This is not reality that needs to be paid attention to. Otherwise, when do you get to know yourself? The Pope is only knowing himself by showing. You know what guys we fucked you. And I'm going to show you how. And he's going to show the entire world.  And they're gonna and they're gonna die they're gonna they're gonna do everything they can to shut them up. Hmm 
 
You might turn into a martyr. Died for his beliefs.  Because you guys can't have anything but image and you masters here are seeing what's involved and deconstructing a paradigm of separation. It is not a purpose. There's not a reason. Is all for you as a self exploration, but you need to get nasty with your Emotions. The ones that bend you into the freakishly idea of odd behavior to yourself, not to others. The self loathing isn't it an odd behavior? I mean, you're the motherfucker who's here. You're the one who's been chosen to exist. You have forever and here you are beating you up for being alive!  You've never been respectful thoroughly, but imagery. Of course, you got to fit in. You gotta be you gotta be right. Now see, humanity is edging out racisms, separation, it's gonna take a long fucking time. 
 
See, I'm going to explain another image to you. If you have any ounce of concern for humanity, that's an image. That's the lusts of compassion, sympathy, helping, doing the work that keeps it, because that's validation of a mind that’s known itself as separate. 
All It is, doesn't predict. 
It doesn't play safe. 
Doesn't measure itself. 
It doesn't allude to the past as ways to control itself in action so it may be pleasing the naked eye of watching’s, watching’s of humanity. 
 
Everyone knows when you're home alone, you're dancing, naked maybe you do things to get it out. To get out this fucking craziness inside of me. I must be nuts I'm getting it out. I'm doing weird shit. I'm getting it out because that's the pent up self, that’s vibrationally all around humanity because of your presence. Truly everyone has it. But how much of a master they are to hide it, to keep it inside.  
 
Ones that are dying of cancer that had disease, they're the masters at that. Because there's nothing zero genetically, generationally, cause and effect. It's all self induced disease. If you take it easy, you're gonna have a good life. But if you take it worthy you're gonna have a life beyond measure. 
 
Relationship was just one portion. That's a big dynamic valve isn't it? It's not only your love relationship, but the relationship with ones that you find interested. Once again, you don't give a shit about strangers most of you. But you also have compassion for them if there's something wrong with them. Maybe you want to get their number. And you have to do it in the ways of humanity to make it civil, correct.
 
Maybe an outcome like Brent struggles with always trying to go find a lover, but he always contort himself on the best way that he thinks they would be thinking. And when they are not thinking the way he thinks he's wondering why the mirror isn't working, through nine years of Abraham's bullshit? Abraham wasn't the bullshit. It was the translation of Abraham's bullshit because that's the consideration of humanities. When something doesn't work, it becomes bullshit. But you're not looking to work anything correctly here. 
 
Roxy is truth. 
Abraham is truth. 
Kryon is truth. 
Everyone is truth. 
Even you are truth. 
That's what you got to see. That the responsibilities do not lie outside of humanity, nor do they lie outside in humanity, outside of the self, you're assigning to humanity. The responsibility is yours. 
 
But it's not a way to be responsible in human wears. Humanity doesn't know how to be responsible. Humanity knows how to limit themselves. They're responsible is the ability as Bashar said to respond. Another truth speaker.
 
He is not contorting himself to fit in with human standards. Even if humanity fits in with human standards, that's still their Subjective Truth. That's the responsibility we need you to start seeing. 
 
How do you feel about your action in the moment? Is it responsible, the responsible thing today, which is a human term? Or is it the ability to respond as the passion speaks to? The dynamic of relationship, this is extensions of what Turtle was speaking about the core ideas of, do I love myself? Am I worth this? 
You guys think if you're not doing the things to create things of futures, then you're not enacting what's on par, on the right track. Having a destination of accomplishment, which is all image. But if you start to be this wicked motherfucker in the now that doesn't give a hootenanny about anything, except it's now passion truth to behold its own reflection as, Oh my God, I'm fucked up here and I'm awesome here, let's keep journeying to explore, not me, but what I create!
I am already all that is!
 
But I am exploring my kingdom created in truth!  Let's find the truth for me. Let's know that I am responsible for my entire world. And I can image, and dodge, and duck, and hide, and blame, and betray. I can do all these things as humans. But what I can't do is deny who I am, a creator of truth because there is no false.
So, what do you want to look at now?
 
If you look at Turtle and the way Turtle spoke last night, no holds bar revealing some parts of Roxy's intimacy with her own sexuality. Revealing anything because see that portion of Turtle and the portion of Roxy created in idea dynamic relationship, in and of itself was a relationship. And the result was a streaming consciousness, a passion. It was not one ounce of flek, flek, to just slightly shifted to a different light, a light of interruption. A light of interference, to bend it to be responsible in the way of reflection as a human, an echo of time. 
 
I don't think so. I think it was balls to the wall full bore on love. I'm in love with me. And it's honorable to yourself that you find images, unknown truths about you that create your reality. Instead of bullshitting yourself, why is this happening? Oh, let's assign it karma. I need to go and clear a past life when all lives are now. But I'm gonna fucking bullshit myself and say there's a past live. And I'm going to do something about that. So this life that has nothing to do with that life. won't feel so shitty about its actions. Let's say killing somebody so I have to pay homage in this life. Son of a bitch. complete fucking bullshit. You know it, it's plastic, it's hollow!
 
But you don't want to be that do you? That relationship of I'm worth creation which by default I must be a creator, do I have to accept that? Yeah, if you want to know. Everyone has an escape clause, don't they? Death. So simple. You can play it out, wait it out. All of you growing old…times coming. Don't worry, you'll go home. 
 
You know most. Here's another image is an image at all. Who's first time? I'm Starchild fucking star child. I'm rainbow. Indigo. They're special, Fuck you. There's no special in creation. There's all equal of one. All right, so a lot of people think they only have one lifetime. No, you guys have hundreds of thousands of lifetimes. Why? Why the fuck do you keep coming back? Why? Why do you keep creating not one, not two, not ten, but fractals upon fractals of you hundreds of thousands. Why? Because you want to know what it's like to be the beauty of discovery of forgotten God remembered. (We ARE cracking up and laughing and saying AMEN OMG!!!!! We love this!!! My partner and I are shouting FUCKIN EXACTLY BITCHESSSSSSSSSSSS)
 
So you're given another go don't show but it's another time but now it's several spans densities in the spans lifetimes of humans. You guys can't take that you have two fractals on the earth at the same time, impossible. Fuck you, impossible! There's nothing impossible in creation! 
 
Your wife could be you. It’s that scary? Is it scary to know your ability to create through the contortions of humanity's demise! They're always trying to put themselves lower! You build yourself up with technology, and really fascinating things and drama, but you don't look at what you are! Worth the creation itself! Why? Well how? Because you forgot. What do we do about that? 
 
Let's remember hundreds or thousands of times! Right now you guys are those masters. 
You know you're awake. 
You're not the bullshit distraction of awake hood. 
You're not a light bearer to offer your light to others who don't want to hear it. 
You're not a fucking preacher. 
You are a God finding this love for the self returning this worthiness from separation. When you got here you only knew fear. Ahhhhh, some motherfuckers you got to do something. You got to swim back through the fear, don't you? 
 
You got to go beyond polarity as (Enphasees) spoke the other night. Monday night's class from that epic species of humanity's own respects from themselves to counter in polarity to offer you something you've never heard before! 
That it's going to hurt! 
That you have to you leave all the polarity. That there is no good to work at, to be, to hope for, for you gotta leave the whole kitten caboodle. If not, you're in couched in imagery because the imagery knows itself as human. Let's not make it obvious, right? You guys are masters. I don't know if you're worthy of it. It to have that worthiness upon your death and you get to have that worthiness upon choice. That's the game. That's the game. 
So creation and anything that have been scraped up through this conversation is you. You got to be responsible for it. Can take it into your heart and say, God, that hurts. How the hell are we going to do that? Well, I don't know. I guess you're a God. You'll find out only one time, now! That's how you know things in the future will occur in the now! If you're a little mind can't figure it out in the now let it the fuck go then you got to trust that you're a God.
 
I know the fractal hates that shit I gotta trust I don't see anything when is it gonna? How's it gonna? huhhh huuhhh huhhh huhhh…let me take action to make sure to happen so I'll be happy, then I'll be fucking miserable now!  And I'll be happy when I get something of happiness. Only when I get that that's when I'm happy that's when I'm that polarity, instead of now beyond polarity.
 
Relationships, okay.  The relationship to the self and that extends out to your own world, your own attractive creation, your own law. Anything else is questioning mind fuck it, it’s just distractions its fears and hopes. Taking a big fucking sledgehammer and your hammer and the foundation and it's thick. That's miles thick. And you're going tink, tink, tink like a fucking flea on a fucking bear. Bear  goes about it's now. But as you keep hammering away at your own structure, your own portion of that self induced coma, that prison, that rock foundation, you start to crumble because you are representing change. 
 
Humanity is hard. They're set in their ways they want to be that thing because that thing is given them imagery of acceptance. Holy shit, what the hell am I? Oh, I'm a rock,  I’m the foundation. I’m this law. I'm that law, I'm this truth, I'm that truth, I'm this standard, okay yeah, let's fight for it!!! Let's fight for my unworthiness.
 
See if you are hammering away your portion of foundation that creates humanity psyche. You start to crumble that motherfucker. Then other people around you in your vibrational awareness where your little vibration is reaching their attention. They're like what are you doing? I'm taking away my image. And you, you see what they do you see how they react? What the hell are you doing? You have gone off the deep end. You're not working! You're not you're not being responsible!
 
See, they're trying to keep you a fucking brick thick as a brick. They're trying to keep you as a foundation of their comfort! You are part of that entire psyche and you are destructing yourself. You're like look at me, I'm fucking up my world everybody. You're gonna die. 
 
You see it the right you can right now you got a good fucking image. Now you hold on to that truth and say I am deconstructing my truths! 
To know that I am beyond polarity. 
I am beyond the foundation of solid. 
I am constant change. 
I am God. I am creator.
I am all that motherfucking is. 
 
And how do you know it's real? Well, let me tell you on the enactments of judgment, when the attempts have been stilling you back into the portion of solid as a human are made. And if you do that one wonderful thing, it's start to choose your passions, despite the fears of the foundation of humanity. You feel something. As all of you have felt your God damn glory.
 
You know, then, that it's real, not real for them, not real to them. 
Oh, it’s real to you. 
My truth gives me my reality. 
My real is my love. 
 
Now that you've tackled relationships, everything else is the same idea. It's all relating to reality. The details are the expression of relationship to reality. Keep knowing yourself, keep relating differently. keep seeing the self exploration of love, the self ensued as a passion. Instead of an image. 
 
You need not be special or good. You need not be anything, but I AM. Get used to that as we continue. Start to get this weird fucking feeling. Okay? This weird image, right? That you know that you're such a complete badass, but you don't claim it. You know the creation is at your fingertips. You're invigorated, you're infused with energy, but not in the image of what it looks like or what is supposed to feel like. You're just allowing yourself to become a moment…fully. 
 
There is such a divine nonchalance that you can't even fathom fucking yourself up again. You just know. And that's when you are the spookiest to humanity. Not that image of I know “a secret” no, no, no.  That exuding confidence that needs no measure or justification. You know you are. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. Okay. All right. So stride well in today's matters. We'll see you all tonight, if you choose. Know that the choice is immeasurable so stop, fucking beat yourself up. Love you